39 weeks of love, our last pregnancy update

This will be my last ever pregnancy update on this blog, I’ve blogged both pregnancy and as I’ve reached my final week of pregnancy forever it’s a sad one. Although hubby said he would like a third I’m 100% done with this chapter of my life, I have my baby boy Lorenzo and now our sweet baby girl and I think I’m thankful every single day for them both.

Both pregnancy journeys have been so very different in their own little ways.

My last week of pregnancy was a busy one and of course our sweet baby girl had to keep her mummy & daddy on her toes. My week began with a routine ob check in that I have weekly until she is born. The morning of my check up I woke to the worst back cramps ever and just feeling off and not in control of my own body, I called my mum as hubby went to work and I just knew I needed help with my son Lorenzo. I was picked up and spent my morning under the watchful eyes of my parents well they helped me care for my two year old. I had my OB appointment at 9:30am my dad didn’t want me to drive so he drove me and waited in the car, the new hospital rules are set in place and dad unfortunately wasn’t aloud inside. When I finally got to see my OB we had a chat and he soon asked me random questions which most of them I replied with “no” which was good. He then took my blood pressure and that’s when it all went down hill. It was way too high, but he said let’s see what she’s up too and go back to that, I has my scan and her heartbeat and everything looked fine and she even kicked. My OB checked my blood pressure and again same number and hadn’t gone down, he waited a few moments and tried again… still the same number, next thing I knew he was on the phone and I was told to make my way to the birthing rooms at the hospital.

I left and walked over to my dad who I then told to go home as I didn’t know how long this would take and I’ll keep them updated. Once I was in the birthing room the midwife was so lovely and caring she could tell I was scared and started a convastion with me, I asked her what was going on as I didn’t have much information from the doctor, she said that having high blood pressure this late in pregnancy sometimes doesn’t mean anything good and they just wanted to rule out things, I was given a cup to pee in, my bloods taken and half an hour on the reading machine for baby girl. My blood pressure was high still and the midwife called my OB. She came back and said if it doesn’t go down they will break my waters today and baby girl has to come out for her safety and mine. More time passed.. My bloods were fine, my pee showed high levels of protien and my blood pressure finally went down, my OB came and checked up on me and asked what I would like to do, I knew I didn’t & wasn’t ready for her to be here just yet and I asked if we could pick a different day. My OB made it clear he didn’t want me going over 40 weeka and we picked our day and he was happy for me to go home and rest.

So yes this week was a bag full of mixed emotions and scares but all worth it because at the end of the day as long as she is here and healthy that’s the only thing that matters.

This week’s pregnant systems.

• sickness – if I don’t eat I feel sick, if I eat I feel sick.. thrown up a few times as well.

• back cramps

• lower pressure in pelvis area.

• cramping front and back.

• feel like ive been leaking on and off all week.

• finally sleeping again at night even if it’s only for four hours at a time.

• leg cramps. Can’t lay on my legs for too long.

Last bump photo.

She’s been kicking my ribs like crazy and at night I feel all of her even her head straight down there when I try to roll over.

Thank you all for following my pregnancy journey and I’m hoping to share all the newborn stage all over again, but who knows we might have to wait and see.

38 weeks pregnant update

38 weeks and still pregnant, will this pregnancy have any kind of end date? I feel like I’ve been pregnant forever now. as I sit here at 11pm at night “wish I could say I was wearing more then just my underwear.” I’m feeling a little deflated… with my first born Lorenzo he was two weeks over due and I had to be induced, with our second I really had hoped this wouldn’t be the case and the more the weeks are passing and still no sign of our sweet baby girl the more I’m starting to feel she will be just like her brother and late.

Facts according to my pregnancy app:

1. your baby is the size of a mini watermelon… ” can you even get mini watermelons?”

2. My baby’s lungs have strengthened and her vocal cords are ready to shine “AKA she is ready to cry the house down.”

3. her weight right now should be 7lbs

Pregnancy symptoms this week have been.

1. This week saw a massive change in my sleep pattern and I can now safety say sleeping at night has become a thing of the past, I’ve tried sleep music a calming bath before bed and nope nothing works.. Oh I’ve even tried colouring in.. so yes Insomnia is very much a thing and when the app tells you to read and that will sooth you too sleep, the app lied too you.

2. Reflux which is been the most consent thing to stick around for both whole pregnancies and I can’t wait for the day she is born and the reflux will be gone.

3. Gone are the days I get out of bed or roll in bed or do anything for that matter that makes me look like a goddess to my husband… and hello to the days of moans and groans and getting stuck mixed with reflux and really sore pelvis pressure and looking like a beached whale.

4. Lots of pressure down in my pelvis area and its killing me, her head seems to be fully engaged and ready yet she just sits there and builds pressure and does nothing for me…

5. Loss of appetite, most nights this week I’ve had to force myself to eat dinner and some nights I just go without, I find it easier to just have little snacks here and there during the day and night and it seems to work for me.

6. Feeling sick has re-entered my life and has even seen me physically throw up this week or when dinner is cooking the smell just sets me off, so I love that!

7. random but I am going to add it into this pregnancy update. some nights I have been hearing little pops but no my waters haven’t broken etc and it is always when baby girl is most active in the womb and yes I’ve asked my Ob but he seems to think it’s just my mind playing tricks on me or my hubby thinks I just keep farting and I don’t feel it… so yeah everyone thinks I’m going crazy? so if this has happened to anyone else I would love to know in the comments down below so I know I’m not actually going crazy.

8. A night my tummy now makes some pretty loud and funny sounds from the inside which has been crazy funny to listen too as it’s so loud the hubby can here them too. and they always happen when I’m just sitting on the sofa or in bed doing nothing.

Bump update.

We made it! 37 weeks pregnant

Just like my OB said this week too me, we finally are “full term.” She can now come when ever she feels like it!

This weeks pregnant systems:

I wish I could say I’ve felt heaps of pregnant systems this week but the bigger she gets and the less room she has everything has slowed down heaps and even her movements have also slowed down.

• reflux- I now go to bed every night taking two reflux tablets.. both pregnancies I’ve had bad reflux..

• pelvic pain.. worst feeling in the world is definitely trying to roll over and your in that much pain it takes a good five minutes to do so.

• less kicks from her and now it’s more I feel her when she moves her little bum or when she has the hiccups etc.

How my OB appointment went.

I now see my OB every week as I’m two weeks away from my due date, this week’s check up was little bit of a exciting one. I learnt that she is head right down, her head is actually in my pelvic bone and that’s why I’ve been feeling lots of pressure, hospital term is she is engaged and ready to go. All my blood works have come back normal and that’s so good to here. Now I just have to wait until she is here which Hopfully is very soon.

Her chubby face all up in my pelvis area

Bump update:

37 weeks and 3 days

I want to start taking side photos of my belly as I feel like she has dropped but only a little tiny bit and would love to compare bump photos but I keep forgetting to do this and probably won’t now it’s too late.

Getting ready for Labour.

Now that I’m 38 weeks as I’m writing this I’ve begun getting my body ready for child birth and this is how.

• working out daily and doing lots of pelvic exercises to help with child birth.

• walking daily to just get her to keep moving down lower.

• red raspberry tea I’ve been having two cups a day.

• working on my breathing.

36 weeks pregnant with only 4 weeks to go

I did it, I made it to 36 weeks and I’m still going. This week has been so physically hard on my body and I can slowly feel myself shutting down so I know this is my body trying to tell me I’m done. This week was my first week not working and being on leave which felt weird but also nice at the same time, I did have pre plans for this time before baby girl makes her arrival into the world, I really wanted to enjoy my alone time with no hubby and having our two year old still in daycare. But the world has other plans for me right now and the big main one is doing my part and staying home and keeping this baby happy and healthy.

Hubby is still working which is good for right now as so many people are losing their jobs in Australia right now and we both decided to keep our son in daycare and keeping up with his normal routine as much as possible. I know a lot of parents will read this and not understand but I am not only a mother I too am a childcare educator, the centre that my son Lorenzo attends is the same place I work at and have worked at for the past five years. All the educators are bleaching toys and furniture daily and I know this for a fact as just last week I was one of them. all children from other age groups and rooms have been keeping their distance and all measurements have been put into place to continue a healthy environment. Not only am I 100% happy with how clean all the teachers are keeping the place, I know that childcare educators are at risk of losing their jobs for every child that is kept home or un-enrolling is one job taken from a childcare educator who has their own family to think about, Lorenzo will still be attending until our baby girl is born, hubby and I have spoken about once she is born we will keep him home for a while “we still are trying to work this out.” then re-send him when we know she is healthy and safe.

This weeks pregnant systems.

• reflux which has pretty much been a weekly update since hitting my third trimester.

• constipation but also at the same time normal bowel movements.. I know TMI

• heaps of movement from baby girl she’s deffiently running out of room.

• massive feeling like I need to push from my bum, lots of pressure in that area I think she must be very low.

Bump update.

Had a OB check up this week, baby girl is head down still and very active and moving around which is good. My blood pressure was a little low for the OB and he did check it twice and it didn’t pick up and then the next day my mother “who used to be a midwife.” checked it herself and it was still low, so I’m trying to keep my water levels up as I think it’s because I’ve been slack and not drinking heaps of water as I should be.

Baby girls heart rate was good, the blood flow etc was good. was sent for a blood test which I’ll get the results back on Monday when I see my OB as we are now at weekly check ups until she arrives into this world.

I can’t wait to see what week 37 brings to the table or if she comes next week or not.

The Caesar Family.

Scared to give birth at such a devastating time

I wasn’t going to comment or make such a blog about the covid- 19 as I think everyone clearly knows about what’s happening in the world right now and you really don’t need one more person reminding you to take better care of ourselves. But as I went food shopping today and saw these two elderly people struggling to walk and push their own trolly and all I wanted to do was offer help.. which I stilled did even knowing they can’t accept it, that moment was probably the hardest for me and I began to cry.

To top everything off we received a email from our hospital with some updated rules that are now set in place to help protect myself and baby girl when she’s born and other hospital staff.

No longer will I have family members come and visit myself or baby girl or friends as I’m only aloud one person daily which clearly will be hubby as he wants to be with his new child as much as possible. But no children under the age of 16 are aloud in hospital which means my two year old son can’t visit and meet his new baby sister until we are home, I get why these rules are in place and I’m 100% ok with that but it still hurts.

My sweet baby girls birth will always be a story and not for the right reasons, I will always look back at this when my child was born when the virus was so bad the whole world was put on lock down, I will always remember that my mother was at my son’s birth but missed my daughter’s and not because she wanted to but because she had too. I’ll always remember being alone in a hospital room well waiting to take my baby girl home and in a safe place.

I understand why these rules are set in place and I agree with all of them for the safety and wellbeing of everyone right now but it doesn’t make it easier for me, a moment for me that I was looking forward too has now changed too a moment I’m scared about, a moment I feel anxious about. A moment I feel worried about. Which I shouldn’t feel this way about the birth of my second but that’s just the reality of the world right now. So now I’m trying to prepare myself for the birth of my sweet baby girl in a completely new setting.

My new birth plan at this stage is too just be ok, to breath and try and take in all the good moments and let go of those other feelings. To try and not get too inside my own head when it’s just me and baby girl in hospital… that’s my new birth plan.

32 weeks of love

The weeks seem to be getting slower and slower and I’m just so ready to meet our sweet baby girl. Hubby and have started the guessing game if she will be early, on time or late. I said on time and hubby is going with late so I guess we will see what the next few weeks bring.

This week’s pregnant systems:

• leg cramps ( really painful) at night and super annoying as they will wake me up if I move my leg the wrong way.

• dry white/ yellow stuff leaking out of my right boob!? Didn’t get this with my first born so Hopfully this is a good sign for my breastfeeding journing.

• having dreams again at night, some nights I’ve been dreaming about labour and there kind of scary dreams about this topic, other nights its about random stuff such as my car being stolen etc.

• really sore boobs to the point I can’t even touch them anymore they hurt.

• Really Bad Braxton hicks I thought I was in early stages of labour as they were very different this time around compared to what I normally get. but again not consent and they soon stopped…

• reflux

• super tired and run down

Bump update:

How I’m feeling.

I wanted to add this in because although social media makes pregnancy look amazing and all that jaz I just want to be 100% honest with you all. I’ve always been a very honest real person on social media and off and nothing will change this. My first pregnancy was a walk in the park compared to this pregnancy… And that’s saying something as I was forever in and out of hospital and almost lost Lorenzo in our second trimester as I was throwing up blood and it wouldn’t stop. But nope Lorenzo was easy compared to baby girl. Everyone fails to mention how hard second pregnancy is on your body, how physically and mentally your done.. full time work, two year old at home and 33 weeks pregnant… definitely won’t be doing this again I think my body and my state of mind needs a long break from childbirth and pregnancy and I think I’m content with two and so is hubby.

Next week I’ll have more to report as we see pur OB every two weeks and that check up is next Tuesday so I’m looking forward to seeing baby girl and how she’s going and giving you all a massive update.

The Caesar family

31 weeks and over it

This week was a hard week… I feel like I’m just repeating myself every week when I day this but I guess as I’m getting closer and closer to my due date things are just getting crazy.

I was one big emotional mess this week. Found myself crying myself to sleep one night thinking the hubby doesn’t love me anymore.. he does and I’m just that crazy pregnant women.

We finally began getting the hospital bags ready for her arrival this week. We chatted with everyone in my family about our game plan for the hospital and who would come take care of our son, we spoke with our photograph about our photos coming up and paid that all off. We did a lot dispite feeling so emotionally run down and tired.

This week’s pregnant systems

• every time I blow my nose I now always have a little blood mixed with it.

• Braxton hicks happen a lot! When I’m at work I’ll get them twice a day just by being on my feet or if I clean my house etc, sometimes super painful and others just normal cramping. I guess second pregnancy it’s a normal thing.

• I wake every night now on and off sleep has become a normal thing which my body is just used to and I guess it’s only going to get worse when she’s born.

• leg cramps at night and super painful

• dizziness

• not hungry as much anymore and don’t really get to finish a whole meal and some nights I’ve gone without dinner because I just don’t feel like it.

• shortness of breath.

• at the end of a working day my feet are puffy, my rings don’t feet my fingers…

• very emotional

Bump update:

Our OB check up.

We saw our OB this week as we now see him every two weeks. I spoke about the Braxton hicks and the spotting I had last week… he was worried about the bleeding and if it happens again I have to go in straight away and not wait. As for all my Braxton hicks… Well I guess I just have to get used to them until she comes.

Only 8 weeks left now! I can’t wait to meet my sweet baby girl and have our family finally feel complete.

Everything you need to know in your third trimester 🤰

At work the other day I was having a conversion with my friends about childbirth it was probably a very funny conversation for me and not so much for them. But the reason we got on the subject about child birth was because I’ve begun having Braxton hicks at work.. anyway this made me more aware of just how little women are actually educated about what it’s really like being pregnant and in your third trimester.

So this brings me to my topic of everything that happens in your third trimester.

Things I wish women told me.

• make a check list, I’ll be sharing mine with you all very soon.

• it’s ok to say no to going out and being social, it doesn’t mean your a bad friend and if your like me and the first one out of your friends to have babies. One day your friends will get it and until that day just let them be mad because one day they will look back and say sorry.

• date nights are important, making time with your husband or partner is still so important.

• make time for you! Be selfish go out alone and enjoy it because for the next few years your going to have a very depent little human who needs there mother And sorry to my husband but also him.

• journal everything or in my case blog! Now this is my second pregnancy and I’ve had this blog since my pregnancy with Lorenzo who is now two years old. I still look back and read his birth blog and those milestones I had with him and I love that! I also have a little box that I’ve made him for when he’s older it has all these letters I’ve written from the time I was pregnant to his first birthday. Any keep sakers are a memory You don’t want to lose.

• don’t fear childbirth, because it’s not actually the worst feeling in the world. The contradictions are harder than the pushing.

• hormones are wild! I found myself on Google the other day trying to find ways to calm myself down I woke up just in the worst mood for no reason.

• don’t plan on walking a whole heap because when you do it hurts like a bitch and you start getting shortness of breath.

• prepare your friends and family, set some ground rules and make sure everyone is on the same page. Again what I mean by this is tell them when it’s ok to come visit and when it’s not. Make sure they know if they are sick to please not come up and visit. Little things like this might not seem important but they are trust me.

Practical things you should definitely be doing by now.

• birth plan – now I’ve said many times yes it’s great to have one but also don’t have to higher of expectations because anything can happen. If you would like to read my birth plan for both pregnancy they are up on my blog.

• pack the hospital bag! Nothing worse than being and feeling unprepared.

• go get your car seat fitted or shown how to install it correctly and safely. With Lorenzo we went to our local fire station and for baby girl when we picked her car seat up from baby bunting we asked and they had a safety person on shift at the time to show us and when we place it in our car we can go back and see if it’s done correctly.

• get to know all your baby items. Play around with your pram practice getting it in and out of your car the best and easiest way and any other items you think you need to get to know. Yes you will be completely silly but trust me nothing worse than a crying new born stuck in her car seat well you try and work out how to fold out the pram…

• classes are your best friend. With Lorenzo I never went to the breast feeding class that was offered to me… boy oh boy do I regret that! They are so helpful you have no idea.

• tour the hospital. Book a tour of where you’ll be get prepared and know your areas well. So helpful and important.

• get the house ready, yes the baby room and and where he or she will sleep is important but it’s not the only thing, make dinners and freeze them down so on night your both tired you can just re-heat. Do a full clean out and make the house as tidy as possible because trust me your going to want to do that after their born so might as well start well pregnant. Do heaps of washing and keep up to date because you’ll forget to do a load of washing some days after child birth and nothing is worse than running out of clean undies.

• stock up on after care items, do this well your pregnant and it’s fresh on your mind. One thing I wished I stocked up more of was breast feeding pads, pads etc.

• do a massive shop in the week or two leading up to the birth of your child, stock up on toilet paper, cleaning supplies, bathroom items. Because trust me the last thing you want to be doing or your partner is running back and forth to the shops because you’ve run out of these things with a two week old baby. All you to do is not wear a bra and be in comfy clothes enjoying your little bundle of joy.

My 3rd trimester check list:

• birth plan – if you would like to see mine it’s already up on my blog page. Just head to the search bar and add in my birth plan and you’ll find both for each of my children.

• take a breast feeding class or chat with someone.

• clean the house before baby girls arrival and when my sister comes to house sit well I’m in labor.

• put the nursey together

• buy everything I need before her birth.

• pack the hospital bag

• tour the hospital

• take as many photos of this last stage as possible.

• plan for newborn baby photos

• start her baby book.

• fit the car seat in and clean my car out.

• get my aftercare kit ready and have it in my bathroom.

• make sure to spend as much one on one time with my son before he becomes a big brother.

For me this pretty much covers everything I can do to be prepared for baby girls arrival. I have my hospital bag left to pack and I’ve made a blog for that as I’m going to list everything one item at a time.

We made it 30 weeks!

Oh what a week… and I thought 29 weeks was hard on me, turns out 30 weeks won that fight.

My week started off a little different, I was graced with some light spotting and blood but it only lasted a day and never returned. I was booked in for a scan and went and saw baby girl straight after the bleeding only to find out she was fine and my wall is still closed, they can’t figure out why I had bleeding and baby girl is perfectly healthy and comfortable. On the bright side i did get to see her and I also am booked in next week to see her as well.

Baby girls foot.

This week’s pregnant systems.

• pink blood “lasted a day.”

• on and off sleep

• super tired durning the day and have begun napping on my lunch break. But tossing and turning and broken sleep at night.

• reflux

• cramping and pains in lower stomach

• leg cramps at night

• dizzy

• very active baby girl moves a lot and I feel her every day.

• after a long day on my feet I notice they get chubby

How I’m feeling.

This week was hard I found myself had way more breakdowns and I’m honesty just ready for her to come out now. I’ve enjoyed this pregnancy but it’s been super hard on my body the second time around and I’m taking it day by day at the moment. I hope she comes early or on time because I definitely don’t think I can make it past 40 weeks.

I’ve made a to-do list of things I need time I within the next coming weeks. For example I really should begin packing my hospital bag which is on my to do list this weekend. Also her room is not even ready yet so I’m adding that to my list.

Can’t wait to see what 31 weeks of pregnancy brings to the table. Hopefully it’s a little better then this week.

The Caesar family ♡

29 weeks done and dusted

Holy heck I’m now officially out the 20’s and hitting the 30 weeks!? Blows my mind.

Wow I don’t even know how to start off with how crazy this week has been and I can feel myself getting more and more over being pregnant as the weeks go by.

This week’s pregnant systems:

Heads up this weeks a little TMI!

• feeling funny in the stomach… honesty don’t know how to word this but for the women out there my week started off with me feeling like when you are due for your period and you keep running to the bathroom to check because your body just feels like it’s leaking or it’s about to start… well yeah I had that feeling which started my week off and lasted a few days to be honest but nothing came of it?

• on the 9th of February I had a night of cramping which happened twice and about 20 minutes apart but again it stopped after the second and never came about again and I went to bed to sleep and was fine the next day.

• my bathroom breaks are becoming more and more and I’m talking lose bowel movements… I seem to poo a lot this week… again TMI I know

• diarrhea Monday 10th but only lasted that day and soon stopped.

• sleeping habits have changed and I’m now waking up at night a lot.of break sleep.. I’ve actually found sleeping on the sofa I get a better night sleep which is so weird.

• heartburn is still very much a thing and reflux

• headaches on and off this week.

• the pregnancy waddle is very much alive and feeling baby girl head down of I walk too much. Gone are the days I could walk the whole food shop with ease!

Bump update:

Bring on 30 weeks I’ve got this!

The Caesar family ♡