Two months earth side

Our little woman is two months and I can’t deal. With Lorenzo I always thought the months went so slow and the newborn stage would never end and now I’m sad because the months just keep flying by and pretty soon she will be one and my baby days will officially be over for good.

Two months and this is how we are going.

I’ve definitely adjusted to being a mother of two and feel more balanced than what I was like the first month. Some days are hard and other days I’ve got all my ducks in a row and killing this whole motherhood gig.

We finally are having a bit of a routine in the Caesar household and now working with Elizabeth and her cues. The only thing I still need to work on is time for myself, finding time to have alone time is so important for me to stay a happy mum and not feel overwhelmed and at the moment trying to find five minutes to myself is still so hard but again this will take time and slowly come again. 

How breastfeeding is going?

Two months in and breastfeeding is finally feeling normal and natural for me. Elizabeth is doing well with her night feeding and has a big five hour break from her first feed to the next. She now feeds from

6:30-7pm she has her first feed.

7:30pm her and I go into the room and turn the lights off and close the door away from her loud brother. This is when I pat her and play soothing music in the background. 

She sleeps from 7:30pm-11pm.

Feeds until about 11:30pm or midnight then goes back down until 3:30am.

Her last feed is 5am then she’s back asleep until 7am.

So yes as you can see she does well at night with her feeds and this works for us.

Unfortunately I can’t say the same about her day feeds. If she could be feeding all day long she would be. But I’ve been pretty strict with her this past month and we are working on bigger breaks in-between her day feeds. I’m trying to get her into a every 3 hour feeding routine so I make sure I have written the time her feeds end and I will count from that time for when her next feed will be. 

My sleeping beauty

Elizabeth and sleep was a battle in the beginning but I’m happy to report she’s improved heaps this month. Last month she was only sleeping on me and hated her bed, this month she’s sleeping so well at night and in her own bed it’s amazing. Unfortunately we are still working on date naps in her own bed but again this will take time and it’s all about baby steps.

Six weeks check up.

Elizabeth had her six weeks check up and shots, we learned that she’s put on 2kgs but we also learnt she is tounge tied. Unfortunately this means she needs surgery to correct it. We booked this in for the 2nd of July and hopefully this will mean dummies and bottles as she hasn’t been able to take these two items and is very fussy most of the time.

Postpartum body update.

Two months from today I gave birth, I’ve been slowly working on my health & fitness. I’ve been on youfoodz since our one month update and have been keeping up with my fitness. Unfortunately I did have one bad week when my lady friend began for the first time since before pregnancy, I think that week I just craved sugars and soft drink and gave in. But I soon got on track.

How’s Lorenzo taking his big brother duties.

Lorenzo is such a good brother to his baby sister. When I was pregnant I’m going to be honest I really didn’t think he would be good but I was proven wrong by him. He is forever giving cuddles & kisses and is very protective to the point he will yell at you that she’s his baby girl.

Two month milestones

° Elizabeth can hold her own neck up for a few minutes by herself.

° smiles and giggles

° can focus objects and people around her.

° longer sleeps in-between feeds at night

° starting to get her baby talk on.

° Elizabeth has found her hands and feet.

Our first week as a family of four.

Can’t believe our baby girl is already a week old, I can’t believe a week ago I was leaving the hospital and taking our fresh baby home to meet her big brother.

So much has happened this week I don’t even know where to begin so I’ve decided to break this up into three parts.

How mumma bear is coping?

This one is a hard one for me to answer right now as I don’t really know how I’m feeling.. some days I’m on top of the world and got the hang of parenting two children and other days I’m a bag full of miss matched emotions… not going to like no one really prepares you for the going home stage, the stage where you now have a two year old and a newborn and your on your own no help from midwifes or doctors and that shit is scary. My first night home I think I just cried & cried… actually i think most of week one was spent crying.

Of course when I fell pregnant we didn’t have this whole #COVID 19 stuff to deal with… now that we do here’s where my world is at, I have a two year old at home with me 24/7 plus a newborn all well the hubby is still working full time, our rules are slowly changing and we can now leave the house to go for walks or a drive etc.. So this will help me out big time in the next coming weeks but still in a normal world my busy toddler would be going to daycare but instead I’m planning activities, trying to keep the house a float, breastfeed a newborn and try and shower and find time for myself.. So yes i think my emotions are semi normal.

Breastfeeding journey.

I might get a lot of heat for saying this, but I don’t enjoy breastfeeding well at least for the moment I don’t find it enjoyable at all… women who say it comes naturally and you just pick up the cues etc…. please tell me what I’m doing wrong because she spends half her nights on my boob and not wanting to sleep or be more them 2cm away from myself or my boobs.. my boobs are sore, it doesn’t feel natural to me and I honestly don’t know how much longer I will continue breastfeeding for.. I’m trying to see if my body and baby girl togther if we naturally get the hang of it soon as yes I know it’s only been a week, but I’m doing this for her not me, if it was up to just myself I would be formula feeding her already as I think fed is best no matter how our children are fed. But she loves my boobs and this bonding time togther so I continue for her happiness &wellbeing.

How my toddler is coping with change.

There’s so much changing in my little man’s life right now it scares me, he’s no longer at daycare and around his friends and teachers a environment he’s been raised in since he was five months old, and for how long we are at home togther is still so unclear and the unknown scares me just as much as I’m sure it scares him, plus we have the added new family member that any child gets a little funny when a new sibling is added into into the mix, so yes I would say Lorenzo is coping but only by how he knows how. I’m trying to balance my time and spend one on one time with Lorenzo as much as I can right now and make sure he still feels loved and not left out but it is hard. I’ve bought a whole heap of craft activities to keep us both busy at home togther.

But I will say he does have his moment, his sweet moments of kisses and cuddles and wanting to hold his “baby” so I know he will soon come around and life will feel normal for him soon.

I’m hoping the weeks begin to ease, things begin to settle and life becomes some what normal.. which I know normal will never be the same again but a normal routine would be nice.

Parent with us

As I sit here and start to write up this blog that’s been on my to do list for a while, I’m struggling to find a “catchy” title.. a title that brings in my followers and makes you want to read this blog. But all that comes into my mind is motherhood, this is motherhood this is how I parent my two year old.

Before I get into what this blog is actually about “even if your confused” it will all make sense very soon.i promise. I want to “sell” myself again I guess.. I’m a 26 year old women who is a mother to a little boy named Lorenzo Robert Caesar who is two and a very inderpent little boy who knows what he wants, I’m also a wife both my hunny and I have been together for seven years and we are far from perfect but we work well togther as a couple and a team when it comes to parenting. Our world is about to become a whole lot busyer as I’m currently 36 weeks pregnant with our baby girl. Oh and we have a very active dog named zues! And that’s how we became the “Caesar family.”

The Caesar family

When we firsted welcomes our son into this crazy thing we call life, our whole world changed the way we were as a couple and how we handled situations changed. Before hubby and I had children we really struggled with how we communicated with each other, a lot of it was me and bringing my past relationships into every situation which for better understanding, my relationship before hubby was with a guy who only saw me “so to speak” when we had fights and we had big fights. Our whole relationship “if you can even call it that.” Was just fighting every day it was a very toxic and unhappy environment which is all I’ll go into detail about. But with hubby I really took those unhealthy habits from my past and just couldn’t shake them from what was a amazing relationship, too the point a broke up with my hubby because he was too nice which it wasn’t until he was gone for me to see and realise he was everything I needed and more.

Our first year togther

When we used to have a fight it was always me who would just blow up straight away and it wasn’t until later on when I realised that was me just putting those walls up straight away and trying to protect myself.. hubby soon realised what I was doing and every time we had a fight or disagreement at the beginning of our relationship he would always try and reassure me that this was try a disagreement and we would work it out and be ok.

Fast forward a few years and now we are parents the way we have disagreements is completely different. When we first became parents we both really had to adjust and this of course meant learning how to parent togther which was hard at first, but two years later we finally have it togther “sometimes.” We sat down one night and spoke about everything and one thing we both could agree on what what we said in front of our children would have long lasting effects and that we didn’t want to put any negative impact on our children.

For us this means when we both disagree with each other at the time and are in front of anyone we just have this “look” I can’t explain the look but we just know each other’s looks and it’s like we make a sticky note about it in our heads and always bring it up when we are in privite rather air our laundry in front of our son or friends and family. This works well for us and trust me it took as a really long time to get to that place of we both sir down and let each other have our say rather just both thinking we are right and the other person is wrong.

I truly am a believer that once you and your partner have found each other’s “love language” and a way to communicate each other’s frustrations in positive ways, it shows in how you parent and work with each other then without.

But please don’t take this as I think we have work out and cracked parenting and our relationship and think we are perfect because trust me we probably do more “wrong” then “right” sometimes but I’m saying it works for us. This is our journey into parenthood and marriage and hubby and I have both have been very intentional with how we communicate and parent our children. We both look at our journey and where we have come from to where we are now and what/ how we want our children to see us and remember.

Our parenting style is simple we choose to do things togther, we put our family first. The way we couple is also simple we choose to always communicate togther and listen and not air our dirty laundry in front of ours but with each other.

When I say we parent togther I really do mean this. One thing we asked each other when we first gave birth to our son Lorenzo was “how do we want our children to grow.?” For us it was simple we both agreed that we wanted our children to always feel loved no matter what. We want out children to grow up remembering those little things such as the extra cuddles, extra time spent at the dinner tables being more internal with our children and always putting them first. For us this means we both tuck our son in at night, we both kiss him and say we love him, we both teach our son right from wrong, we both spend that one on one time with him.

When our sweet baby girl comes we both know we will have to change and adjust to a family of four but I believe we can and we will be just as successful with how we cope with whatever life gives us just as much as we already are now.

The Caesar family ♡

29 weeks done and dusted

Holy heck I’m now officially out the 20’s and hitting the 30 weeks!? Blows my mind.

Wow I don’t even know how to start off with how crazy this week has been and I can feel myself getting more and more over being pregnant as the weeks go by.

This week’s pregnant systems:

Heads up this weeks a little TMI!

• feeling funny in the stomach… honesty don’t know how to word this but for the women out there my week started off with me feeling like when you are due for your period and you keep running to the bathroom to check because your body just feels like it’s leaking or it’s about to start… well yeah I had that feeling which started my week off and lasted a few days to be honest but nothing came of it?

• on the 9th of February I had a night of cramping which happened twice and about 20 minutes apart but again it stopped after the second and never came about again and I went to bed to sleep and was fine the next day.

• my bathroom breaks are becoming more and more and I’m talking lose bowel movements… I seem to poo a lot this week… again TMI I know

• diarrhea Monday 10th but only lasted that day and soon stopped.

• sleeping habits have changed and I’m now waking up at night a lot.of break sleep.. I’ve actually found sleeping on the sofa I get a better night sleep which is so weird.

• heartburn is still very much a thing and reflux

• headaches on and off this week.

• the pregnancy waddle is very much alive and feeling baby girl head down of I walk too much. Gone are the days I could walk the whole food shop with ease!

Bump update:

Bring on 30 weeks I’ve got this!

The Caesar family ♡

27 weeks down 13 left to go!

This week started with me on bed rest and has ended in information overload….

End of 26 weeks start of 27 weeks I began cramping in my lower front belly which wouldn’t be weird if also baby girl wasn’t the most active when cramping that’s she’s ever been. And I’m not talking just mild cramping I’m talking really bad period can’t walk it hurts cramping..

I clearly got a check up straight away and was put on bed rest for two days which definitely made things calm down. Which brings me into 27 weeks I already had a OB appointment booked for the Tuesday and I sat down with my ob and went over everything with him, turns out I got a taste of Braxton Hick contractions which isn’t that un-normal as I’ve had two pregnancy close together (two years) and because of my line of job ( educator) which is a high stressful environment.

After our chat we finally got to the scan and we soon learnt why I also might be in so much pain towards my lower belly, she likes to be head down. So in easy terms her head is pressing down on my lady bits and I’m over it!

The only bad thing about her head being so low down is when we tried to get a nice 3D picture all we could see was her ear… I was upset about this but then I soon learnt from now onwards I will be seeing my OB every two weeks until she is born as I’m close to the end!!!

Pregnancy symptoms this week:

• bad cramping and discomfort

• round ligament pains

• starting to get water weight around my face and looking a little puffy and swollen.

Pretty good week other than the Braxton Hick scare. Which it’s been a nice change.

Engery levels:

Well my two year old got sick over the long Australia Day weekend and with that meant his sleep patterns were pretty much thrown out the window as we’re mine. But surprisingly my body has been able to handle it and the only day I felt really tired and exhausted was when my body clock woke me from 1am-3am and I ended up watching tv.

Bump update.

According to my app:

She is the size of a cabbage….

And she’s only meant to 38cm and 0.98kgs well after my scan I can safely say she’s about 1kg already and that’s a big baby.

How I’m feeling:

Definitely beginning to feel run down and just trying to keep going is my main goal, walking has slowed down and I’m walking more and more like a penguin… I take it week by week at the moment.

Can’t wait to see what 28 weeks of pregnancy has in the works for me and finally in the home yard and third trimester!

Our last pregnancy

I’m currently 27 weeks going into my 28th of my second pregnancy. We have been so blessed with our two year old son Lorenzo and even more blessed our second pregnancy is with our sweet baby girl. It’s so rare and so lucky for us to be blessed with one of each and for that I’m so thankful because my hubby already said if this one was a boy there would of been a third!? So I’m even more greatful it’s our sweet baby girl.

Baby E.A.C

This pregnancy has been so different to my pregnancy with my son that I think right from the start I knew it was a girl because of just how different it all was. In the next almost 12 weeks we will be welcoming our baby girl into this world and I’m going to be honest and say I’m so scared and extremely excited for this next chapter for the Caesar family.

Our family will be complete the four of us plus our family dog zues, we definitely think we are set and connent with a family of four so as I’m writing these words I’m getting a little emtional knowing this is definitely the end of my pregnancy journey.

In almost 12 weeks ” I say almost because we are not there yet.” I will push out a baby for the very last time, this is the last time I’ll feel baby kicks from the inside, nausea all hours of the day & night, last time I can freely use the “I’m pregnant card” with hubby and the very last time my body will look the way it does. And I’m a little emtional about this and I’m more emtional for the many women who are still trying to have what I’ve been blessed to have twice now, I know that pain, I know the hardship they are going through I’ve seen it first hand and I’ve been there and I still see it around me on a weekly basis. So yeah I’m emtional knowing I’m at the end of my journey and there are women out there still trying to just get to the beginning of theirs and I will continue to pray for all of these women and their rainbow.

But don’t hate me for what I’m about say… But I’m so relieved “my” journey is almost at the end. I would be lying if I sat here and said I’m enjoying every little bit of this pregnancy because the truth is the second pregnancy is so much more intense… With Lorenzo both hubby and I were on cloud nine the whole time even when we were in and out of hospital I was still over the moon about being pregnant. This time around I’m running after a two year old, trying to balance working full time with fiftheen children a day, trying to love myself and take care of myself as well as my family. I’m run down, tired, in pain and just trying to keep a float some days. I’ve cried a lot this pregnancy to my family saying “how am I meant to do this?” Am I going to mother two children? Will I cope how will I cope, can I still work full-time with two children? Or should I start dealing with the fact I need to go part time.?

But she is worth it all just like Lorenzo was. I’ll miss all these things the good & bad and I know I will even though right now I can’t wait for the bad to end I’ll miss it a few years down the track when she’s starting kindergarten for the first time I’ll look back on being pregnant with her and try and remember it all but I’ll be so thankful for these blogs that I get to re-live this very moment I’m talking about. I still find myself reading Lorenzo’s birth blog and it’s a nice reminder of how hard I worked just to have him here with us and now he’s two.

We know our lives are going to become way more busy and hard but we wouldn’t of had it any other way, we always knew we would have two, we knew we wanted them close in age and we knew we wanted a two year age gap and this is what we got. We survived the newborn stage with Lorenzo we can do it all over again and be a boss! We know what we are doing and we know what we want for our family we are just ticking more goals off our family list.

So I’m going to enjoy these last 12 weeks I’m going to try and enjoy every little bit of this pregnancy and soak it all in for this is our last and I know I’ll miss it in a few years.

The Caesar family ❌

My own fears about breastfeeding baby no.2

If you’ve been following my blog since my son’s birth two years ago then you might remember my breast feeding journey with him. If your new to my blog let me give you the short version and try and link my breastfeeding blog for you too go back on and have a read if you like.

http://breastfeeding struggles

But to break it down for you guys. Lorenzo birth was a very interesting… They called my birth a “brow birth.” This is

But because of this his heart rate dropped and he got scared as he got stuck… So when he first was born he was actually taken away from me for heaps of testing this is when they found out his sugar levels were below 2.6 and because my breast milk didn’t come in until day five which was too late he needed to be formula fed straight away to get his sugar levels up and for us to be given the ok to leave the hospital.

And this is where my fears for baby girl come in and my breastfeeding journey with her. We also didn’t find out until Lorenzo was probably about five months old that he was also dairy intorlant so of course when I did try to breast feed he wasn’t having a bar of it because he was getting really bad colic because of this…

Now that Lorenzo is two we just had his check up with his doctor and he’s now been confirmed dairy intorlant and that baby girl will most likely be the same as it runs in the family on his dad’s side. I’m so glad we have been given the heads up it means I get this time to prepare myself unlike last time. And also gives me a time to make a plan.

I would be lying if I said I don’t mind not breastfeeding as I really want to have this experience with at least one of my kids. But I also know that a fed baby is a happy baby no matter how they get their milk supply from. But yes I’m going to try my best to breast feed baby girl.

After doing some research, I’ve found many conflicting stories and people say something different every time.

This is what Lorenzo had.

After lots of reading and based on all the articles I’ve had a read of if I change my diet and not only eat healthier and cut out dairy I will still be able to breastfeed.

But this is where all my questions come into play and maybe I need to look into a breastfeeding consolent.

• do I begin cutting out dairy now that I’m going into my third trimester?

• should I cut out dairy or should I still be adding in these types of fats?

• will I be able to do this?

So many questions!? But this is where I’ll leave the blog on this topic as I have decided to see someone for some support and extra help which I will write a new blog all about.

The Caesar family ❌

Lorenzo is two!

I’ve been doing updates on Lorenzo since I was pregnant with him and I’ve updated on his one year update and now I can’t believe it’s time for his two year update!?

It’s so crazy to think back to the very beginning and how it’s been two years being his mother.

Baby Lorenzo

These past two years have gone by so fast and I’m loving watching him grow up.

His likes:

• he is very much an outside boy.

• water play is his favourite kind of play.

• loves to get messy and I think I’m bathing him sometimes twice a day.

• fire man Sam is his favourite show at the moment which it used to be paw patrol but he’s slowly getting bored of this show.

• loves buses, trains, plains, trucks & police cars.

• likes painting and puzzles

Dislikes:

• veggies – yes I already have a picky eater and if he sees any he won’t touch so I usually have to hide them.

• sharing his toys ” we still are learning.”

• hights

• loud sounds do freak him out and he even calls our vacuum a dinosaur.

Lorenzos favourite food:

• pasta he likes plain pasta

• rice

• fish

• banana

• blueberries

• roast veggies is probably the only kind he will eat.

Milestones:

Social ~

• copies others with actions & words

• shows excitement when around others

• independent

• difent behaviour ” very much”

• interactions with other children.

Verbal:

• can point and let someone know what he wants

• can say up to seven names, objects, body parts.

• follows instructions

• can say words together ( still working on full sentence)

• repeats words

Problem solving:

• enjoys puzzles and can spend more than five minutes doing so.

• can hide a object and remember where he placed it even the next day.

• enjoys building blocks and also knocking them down.

Gross motor:

• kicks a ball

• runs

• climbs

• can walk up and down stairs on his own.

• throws a ball over his head

• can draw

Two years ago I became a mother, being Lorenzo’s mother has been the best two years of my life. Lorenzo has become my best friend and my son, I got so lucky having him in our lives daddy and mummy love you very much our boy.

My favourite part of the day is also bed time and no not because I’m putting him to bed but because of the bond and routine we have made with Lorenzo. Every night putting our son to bed it’s always hubby and I together, we tuck him in and read a book as a family, we both kiss him to bed and say I love you to the end of time and leave him to sleep. Those little moments are my favourite and the moments hell remember forever.

Lorenzo Robert Caesar we love you too the moon and back 💞

26 weeks of loving you

Well this week began as any normal week and ended on a kind of a scary note… And I’m going to leave you all on a cliff hanger because I myself don’t know yet.

Pregnancy symptoms:

• began leaking in my boobs this week, only very small and not every day thank god. But I know this is a great sign because with Lorenzo my milk supply didn’t come in until five days after his birthday..

• acid reflux has gotten worse. I began taking tablets but they make me throw up when I take them, I see my ob next week and definitely will be chatting about this.

• super tired this week, just having lack of any motivation or engery which I think also the heat plays a massive part of that being is Australia and it being summer. But yeah I just don’t feel like do anything which is not ideal

• not so much craving things that are weird but when I do eat this week I’ve just felt like salads which isn’t that weird for me as I have always loved salads.. but yeah I’ve got it bad for salads this week and made myself two in the space of 40 minutes at work on lunch!?

• really itching skin

Bump update:

According to my pregnancy app baby girl is the size of

Health update:

Wednesday afternoon my big old pregnant belly began to do something funny, I can’t explain it all that well but it began to feel tight and baby girl began to become very active she only did this once and on top of everything I was in the summer heat at work and that also began to effect me. Later that night I began cooking dinner and became very dizzy and had to sit down. Again I was super tired and the heat I think just got the best of me. The next morning I woke to cramping which started on just my left side then turned into both lower sides.

I went to work as normal but soon became worried and went to my doctor straight away. Here’s where it gets a tad confusing. He checked on baby girl and her heartbeat was stable and good and she seemed happy, I also was fine just cramping. Again when he was checking over me I began cramping and at the same time she was very active. He was more worried that she was only active when cramping and that I was cramping but no other signs, I was told it could be early set labour but he was hoping if I was put on bed rest for a few days to rest it would calm it’s self down.

I see my doctor again on Tuesday but of course if anything happens I’ll be heading straight to the hospital. I’ve been given a list of things to look out for and now it’s just a waiting game. I’m sure everything will be fine and baby girl is just kicking up a Strom and causing troubles.

But again I’ll have to keep you all updated and wait until my 27 week update.

Hopefully you’ll all see a 27 week update and everything is fine.

The Caesar family ❌

23 week pregnancy update

The in between week of just after Christmas and now into new years and trying to remember what day it even is. That’s pretty much how 23 weeks of pregnancy went for me.

I’ve had two weeks off work over the Christmas / new years and it’s been so nice to just have some down time and relax and recharge before I head back to work.

Bump update:

Not much growth compared to the week before but definitely feeling baby girl move around a lot more. The pregnancy app tells me my baby is the size of a grape fruit and that baby girl is now 20cm & 0.54kgs.

Pregnancy symptoms this week:

• no engery levels – daily naps are now very much a thing and I can’t go a day without one or I just end up falling asleep on the couch anyway.

• probably most definitely TMI but supper gassy!

• lower stomach pains just from growing.

• pregnancy brain! I was booked in for a scan and guess which dummy was out to brunch with friends when she forgot she had a scan at the same time.. and now my Ob is on holiday with his family until the end of January so I won’t get to see my baby girl for a few weeks… Definitely pregnancy brain.

Sorry for such a short and sweet 23 weeks pregnancy update this week but being at home for the past two weeks and kind of just taking it easy there hasn’t been a whole lot to report. But I’m back at work next week and I’m sure I’ll have heaps.