breastfeeding journey 2.0

Second pregnancy, second child, second time breastfeeding..

If you’ve followed my blog since my first pregnancy with my now two-year old Lorenzo then you will already know how my breastfeeding journey went with him, and if not it’s ok I’m going to refresh everyone now

Lorenzo’s birth was definitely different from Elizabeth. Lorenzo was a brow birth ” I’ll add in what that means hear” from Google. 

Brow presentation happens when your baby’s neck and head are slightly extended (deflexed), as if your baby is looking up. The ideal position for your baby to be born in is with her chin tucked into her chest (flexed position), so her head is well down.”

Because of this Lorenzo’s heart rate dropped a few times and he became distressed, once he was born he went for tests, this is how we found out his sugar levels were extremely low. He went down at the nursery too be watched over for the first 48 hours, I also unfortunately didn’t have anything in my boobs to give.. it was weird it was like my body just didn’t know how to make even the stuff before your breast Milk comes in. 

Lorenzo needed to put on weight and fast. We were told that if he didn’t pick up above such number they would have to put him on a drip. Of course in this moment his health was way more important to us then breastfeeding worries so Lorenzo went on formula to help him grow and stay healthy. 

This was super hard for me, as a first time mother I never imaged I would struggle to breast feed, you see all over women’s social media’s how amazing breastfeeding is and how natural they all look doing it… I felt deflated this didn’t happen for me. 

When I was in my third trimester with Elizabeth I was preparing myself to have the same struggles breastfeeding. I began buying bottles and formula so that when we were discharged from hospital we wouldn’t be running around trying to get these items last minute. 

But from the moment Elizabeth was born, she knew what to do and I had the supply she needed from day one. 

But I still struggled breastfeeding, again it didn’t feel natural. It hurt the first few days, I felt she wasn’t latching on correctly and I began asking myself “will this always hurt?” “When will this start feeling easier?”

I was running on little sleep, sore boobs and running after a two-year old during the day. I was very emotional and all for the wrong reasons. 

But two weeks into breastfeeding Elizabeth and I can safely say it no longer hurts and the bond her and I now share is this amazing feeling, I don’t know how long I will continue to breast feed Elizabeth these are questions I don’t have the answers to right this moment. But for now I’m enjoying these little moments between both myself and Elizabeth.

I would Loved to here some of my followers did you guys ever feel the same way?

Our first week as a family of four.

Can’t believe our baby girl is already a week old, I can’t believe a week ago I was leaving the hospital and taking our fresh baby home to meet her big brother.

So much has happened this week I don’t even know where to begin so I’ve decided to break this up into three parts.

How mumma bear is coping?

This one is a hard one for me to answer right now as I don’t really know how I’m feeling.. some days I’m on top of the world and got the hang of parenting two children and other days I’m a bag full of miss matched emotions… not going to like no one really prepares you for the going home stage, the stage where you now have a two year old and a newborn and your on your own no help from midwifes or doctors and that shit is scary. My first night home I think I just cried & cried… actually i think most of week one was spent crying.

Of course when I fell pregnant we didn’t have this whole #COVID 19 stuff to deal with… now that we do here’s where my world is at, I have a two year old at home with me 24/7 plus a newborn all well the hubby is still working full time, our rules are slowly changing and we can now leave the house to go for walks or a drive etc.. So this will help me out big time in the next coming weeks but still in a normal world my busy toddler would be going to daycare but instead I’m planning activities, trying to keep the house a float, breastfeed a newborn and try and shower and find time for myself.. So yes i think my emotions are semi normal.

Breastfeeding journey.

I might get a lot of heat for saying this, but I don’t enjoy breastfeeding well at least for the moment I don’t find it enjoyable at all… women who say it comes naturally and you just pick up the cues etc…. please tell me what I’m doing wrong because she spends half her nights on my boob and not wanting to sleep or be more them 2cm away from myself or my boobs.. my boobs are sore, it doesn’t feel natural to me and I honestly don’t know how much longer I will continue breastfeeding for.. I’m trying to see if my body and baby girl togther if we naturally get the hang of it soon as yes I know it’s only been a week, but I’m doing this for her not me, if it was up to just myself I would be formula feeding her already as I think fed is best no matter how our children are fed. But she loves my boobs and this bonding time togther so I continue for her happiness &wellbeing.

How my toddler is coping with change.

There’s so much changing in my little man’s life right now it scares me, he’s no longer at daycare and around his friends and teachers a environment he’s been raised in since he was five months old, and for how long we are at home togther is still so unclear and the unknown scares me just as much as I’m sure it scares him, plus we have the added new family member that any child gets a little funny when a new sibling is added into into the mix, so yes I would say Lorenzo is coping but only by how he knows how. I’m trying to balance my time and spend one on one time with Lorenzo as much as I can right now and make sure he still feels loved and not left out but it is hard. I’ve bought a whole heap of craft activities to keep us both busy at home togther.

But I will say he does have his moment, his sweet moments of kisses and cuddles and wanting to hold his “baby” so I know he will soon come around and life will feel normal for him soon.

I’m hoping the weeks begin to ease, things begin to settle and life becomes some what normal.. which I know normal will never be the same again but a normal routine would be nice.

My own fears about breastfeeding baby no.2

If you’ve been following my blog since my son’s birth two years ago then you might remember my breast feeding journey with him. If your new to my blog let me give you the short version and try and link my breastfeeding blog for you too go back on and have a read if you like.

http://breastfeeding struggles

But to break it down for you guys. Lorenzo birth was a very interesting… They called my birth a “brow birth.” This is

But because of this his heart rate dropped and he got scared as he got stuck… So when he first was born he was actually taken away from me for heaps of testing this is when they found out his sugar levels were below 2.6 and because my breast milk didn’t come in until day five which was too late he needed to be formula fed straight away to get his sugar levels up and for us to be given the ok to leave the hospital.

And this is where my fears for baby girl come in and my breastfeeding journey with her. We also didn’t find out until Lorenzo was probably about five months old that he was also dairy intorlant so of course when I did try to breast feed he wasn’t having a bar of it because he was getting really bad colic because of this…

Now that Lorenzo is two we just had his check up with his doctor and he’s now been confirmed dairy intorlant and that baby girl will most likely be the same as it runs in the family on his dad’s side. I’m so glad we have been given the heads up it means I get this time to prepare myself unlike last time. And also gives me a time to make a plan.

I would be lying if I said I don’t mind not breastfeeding as I really want to have this experience with at least one of my kids. But I also know that a fed baby is a happy baby no matter how they get their milk supply from. But yes I’m going to try my best to breast feed baby girl.

After doing some research, I’ve found many conflicting stories and people say something different every time.

This is what Lorenzo had.

After lots of reading and based on all the articles I’ve had a read of if I change my diet and not only eat healthier and cut out dairy I will still be able to breastfeed.

But this is where all my questions come into play and maybe I need to look into a breastfeeding consolent.

• do I begin cutting out dairy now that I’m going into my third trimester?

• should I cut out dairy or should I still be adding in these types of fats?

• will I be able to do this?

So many questions!? But this is where I’ll leave the blog on this topic as I have decided to see someone for some support and extra help which I will write a new blog all about.

The Caesar family ❌