Two months earth side

Our little woman is two months and I can’t deal. With Lorenzo I always thought the months went so slow and the newborn stage would never end and now I’m sad because the months just keep flying by and pretty soon she will be one and my baby days will officially be over for good.

Two months and this is how we are going.

I’ve definitely adjusted to being a mother of two and feel more balanced than what I was like the first month. Some days are hard and other days I’ve got all my ducks in a row and killing this whole motherhood gig.

We finally are having a bit of a routine in the Caesar household and now working with Elizabeth and her cues. The only thing I still need to work on is time for myself, finding time to have alone time is so important for me to stay a happy mum and not feel overwhelmed and at the moment trying to find five minutes to myself is still so hard but again this will take time and slowly come again. 

How breastfeeding is going?

Two months in and breastfeeding is finally feeling normal and natural for me. Elizabeth is doing well with her night feeding and has a big five hour break from her first feed to the next. She now feeds from

6:30-7pm she has her first feed.

7:30pm her and I go into the room and turn the lights off and close the door away from her loud brother. This is when I pat her and play soothing music in the background. 

She sleeps from 7:30pm-11pm.

Feeds until about 11:30pm or midnight then goes back down until 3:30am.

Her last feed is 5am then she’s back asleep until 7am.

So yes as you can see she does well at night with her feeds and this works for us.

Unfortunately I can’t say the same about her day feeds. If she could be feeding all day long she would be. But I’ve been pretty strict with her this past month and we are working on bigger breaks in-between her day feeds. I’m trying to get her into a every 3 hour feeding routine so I make sure I have written the time her feeds end and I will count from that time for when her next feed will be. 

My sleeping beauty

Elizabeth and sleep was a battle in the beginning but I’m happy to report she’s improved heaps this month. Last month she was only sleeping on me and hated her bed, this month she’s sleeping so well at night and in her own bed it’s amazing. Unfortunately we are still working on date naps in her own bed but again this will take time and it’s all about baby steps.

Six weeks check up.

Elizabeth had her six weeks check up and shots, we learned that she’s put on 2kgs but we also learnt she is tounge tied. Unfortunately this means she needs surgery to correct it. We booked this in for the 2nd of July and hopefully this will mean dummies and bottles as she hasn’t been able to take these two items and is very fussy most of the time.

Postpartum body update.

Two months from today I gave birth, I’ve been slowly working on my health & fitness. I’ve been on youfoodz since our one month update and have been keeping up with my fitness. Unfortunately I did have one bad week when my lady friend began for the first time since before pregnancy, I think that week I just craved sugars and soft drink and gave in. But I soon got on track.

How’s Lorenzo taking his big brother duties.

Lorenzo is such a good brother to his baby sister. When I was pregnant I’m going to be honest I really didn’t think he would be good but I was proven wrong by him. He is forever giving cuddles & kisses and is very protective to the point he will yell at you that she’s his baby girl.

Two month milestones

° Elizabeth can hold her own neck up for a few minutes by herself.

° smiles and giggles

° can focus objects and people around her.

° longer sleeps in-between feeds at night

° starting to get her baby talk on.

° Elizabeth has found her hands and feet.

Our first month as a family of four 🌷

It’s already been a month!? It feels like just last week I gave birth to our sweet baby girl.

As i sit here and write up this blog I have baby girl sleeping in my arms after a feed and my two year old eating breakfast well watching his morning kid shows. This month has been one big old blur with me trying to juggle being a mother of one to now a mother of two!? I still can’t believe how much my life has changed “again” in the space of a month.

So how has our first month been?

Our first month with Elizabeth has been a busy first month, I have struggled trying to adjust from being a mother of one too a mother of two, it’s this crazy feeling you just can’t explain until you become a parent of two.

You always see those parents with two children all over your social media’s looking like they have their sh*t togther and make it look so easy, well I’m sorry to say it’s all a lie. It’s so easy to share the great moments of parenting and not share the truths.

This for me was a struggle into parenting two kids, because I honesty felt like I was failing because over on my Instagram all I would see was how easy it was for other mothers and I was crying everyday and struggling to find time to have a shower and shave my legs.

But I’m happy to report after the first 3 weeks were over I began to feel like myself again, I started getting the hang of parenting a two year old who throws tantrums from time to time and a newborn who some days just wants to be on the boob all day long.

How is breastfeeding going?

If you haven’t had a read of my breastfeeding blog I did cover this whole topic. Breastfeeding with my two-year old just didn’t happen “which explained in detail over on that blog.” But because of my first experience I really didn’t think breastfeeding would happen the second time around and yet this time it happened so naturally and although it was hard work the first few weeks Elizabeth and I are both doing well on our breastfeeding journey together and I’m loving those extra moments between herself and I.

Too sleep or not to sleep.

Our first month with Elizabeth and sleep unfortunately hasn’t been a win for us. She does well with her day sleeps away from me, she will happily sleep in her bassist or swing but our night sleeps in the bassist have become non-existent. But if I have been honest I haven’t really been fighting her on this and have enjoyed our chest to chest sleeps, although she doesn’t do well sleeping in her own bed when she sleeps she’s pretty good. She now sleeps longer intervals during the night but she does have her “fussy” hour from 3:30am-4:30am. 

I have decided to buy a sleep help guid now that she’s a month old I do want to now focus on making her a routine something that will help me and help her, I also will be trying to get her to sleep in her bassist over the weekend well hubby is home and I can have that extra time and help. Lorenzo our first-born was also the same and we had to work with him to get him to sleep on his own, took us a few days and was long and hard but we got there and I know we can with Elizabeth as well. 

If the shoe fits?

I swear Lorenzo had out-grown all his new-born clothing by the time he was one month, just from being a super long baby. So again I don’t why I did this but when buying clothing for Elizabeth I didn’t spend much on newborn stuff and began buying for 0-3 months which turns out I’m still struggling to fit her in newborn outfits as some are still too big.

One month milestones.

• Elizabeth is already trying to hold her head & neck up on her own.

• Elizabeth can turn her head from side to side already

Only child no more?

When we first brought Elizabeth home Lorenzo was half and half about his feelings towards his new baby sister. Now we are month in and his love has grown but he still doesn’t understand. Lorenzo still is adjusting to having to wait for something he needs or wants because I’ll be busy breastfeeding or changing baby sister, but the way both hubby and I look at this is his learning that he doesn’t get everything he wants straight away anymore… now if only we could get him to share and all will be right in the Caesar household.

My postpartum body?

I’ve cut out some bad habits due to breastfeeding but I haven’t really forced or focused too much on healthy eating and working out, this first month has been crazy and it has been more about getting myself in the correct head space and adjusting too my new life with two kids.

But I would love to point out breastfeeding did help me lose a little bit of that tummy which was a nice little surprise.

But I can’t wait to keep you all updated on my postpartum journey, I’ve just did a massive food shop with youfoodz online and as gyms are still closed I’ve gone out and bought myself heaps of gym gear as well as buying Kayla Itsines “sweat app for my at home workouts.

This month has gone so fast and has come with some bad days mixed with the good days. I’ve loved becoming a mother or two and I’m thankful each and every day for two healthy children I can’t wait to see what the next 11 months have to offer.

breastfeeding journey 2.0

Second pregnancy, second child, second time breastfeeding..

If you’ve followed my blog since my first pregnancy with my now two-year old Lorenzo then you will already know how my breastfeeding journey went with him, and if not it’s ok I’m going to refresh everyone now

Lorenzo’s birth was definitely different from Elizabeth. Lorenzo was a brow birth ” I’ll add in what that means hear” from Google. 

Brow presentation happens when your baby’s neck and head are slightly extended (deflexed), as if your baby is looking up. The ideal position for your baby to be born in is with her chin tucked into her chest (flexed position), so her head is well down.”

Because of this Lorenzo’s heart rate dropped a few times and he became distressed, once he was born he went for tests, this is how we found out his sugar levels were extremely low. He went down at the nursery too be watched over for the first 48 hours, I also unfortunately didn’t have anything in my boobs to give.. it was weird it was like my body just didn’t know how to make even the stuff before your breast Milk comes in. 

Lorenzo needed to put on weight and fast. We were told that if he didn’t pick up above such number they would have to put him on a drip. Of course in this moment his health was way more important to us then breastfeeding worries so Lorenzo went on formula to help him grow and stay healthy. 

This was super hard for me, as a first time mother I never imaged I would struggle to breast feed, you see all over women’s social media’s how amazing breastfeeding is and how natural they all look doing it… I felt deflated this didn’t happen for me. 

When I was in my third trimester with Elizabeth I was preparing myself to have the same struggles breastfeeding. I began buying bottles and formula so that when we were discharged from hospital we wouldn’t be running around trying to get these items last minute. 

But from the moment Elizabeth was born, she knew what to do and I had the supply she needed from day one. 

But I still struggled breastfeeding, again it didn’t feel natural. It hurt the first few days, I felt she wasn’t latching on correctly and I began asking myself “will this always hurt?” “When will this start feeling easier?”

I was running on little sleep, sore boobs and running after a two-year old during the day. I was very emotional and all for the wrong reasons. 

But two weeks into breastfeeding Elizabeth and I can safely say it no longer hurts and the bond her and I now share is this amazing feeling, I don’t know how long I will continue to breast feed Elizabeth these are questions I don’t have the answers to right this moment. But for now I’m enjoying these little moments between both myself and Elizabeth.

I would Loved to here some of my followers did you guys ever feel the same way?

Our first week as a family of four.

Can’t believe our baby girl is already a week old, I can’t believe a week ago I was leaving the hospital and taking our fresh baby home to meet her big brother.

So much has happened this week I don’t even know where to begin so I’ve decided to break this up into three parts.

How mumma bear is coping?

This one is a hard one for me to answer right now as I don’t really know how I’m feeling.. some days I’m on top of the world and got the hang of parenting two children and other days I’m a bag full of miss matched emotions… not going to like no one really prepares you for the going home stage, the stage where you now have a two year old and a newborn and your on your own no help from midwifes or doctors and that shit is scary. My first night home I think I just cried & cried… actually i think most of week one was spent crying.

Of course when I fell pregnant we didn’t have this whole #COVID 19 stuff to deal with… now that we do here’s where my world is at, I have a two year old at home with me 24/7 plus a newborn all well the hubby is still working full time, our rules are slowly changing and we can now leave the house to go for walks or a drive etc.. So this will help me out big time in the next coming weeks but still in a normal world my busy toddler would be going to daycare but instead I’m planning activities, trying to keep the house a float, breastfeed a newborn and try and shower and find time for myself.. So yes i think my emotions are semi normal.

Breastfeeding journey.

I might get a lot of heat for saying this, but I don’t enjoy breastfeeding well at least for the moment I don’t find it enjoyable at all… women who say it comes naturally and you just pick up the cues etc…. please tell me what I’m doing wrong because she spends half her nights on my boob and not wanting to sleep or be more them 2cm away from myself or my boobs.. my boobs are sore, it doesn’t feel natural to me and I honestly don’t know how much longer I will continue breastfeeding for.. I’m trying to see if my body and baby girl togther if we naturally get the hang of it soon as yes I know it’s only been a week, but I’m doing this for her not me, if it was up to just myself I would be formula feeding her already as I think fed is best no matter how our children are fed. But she loves my boobs and this bonding time togther so I continue for her happiness &wellbeing.

How my toddler is coping with change.

There’s so much changing in my little man’s life right now it scares me, he’s no longer at daycare and around his friends and teachers a environment he’s been raised in since he was five months old, and for how long we are at home togther is still so unclear and the unknown scares me just as much as I’m sure it scares him, plus we have the added new family member that any child gets a little funny when a new sibling is added into into the mix, so yes I would say Lorenzo is coping but only by how he knows how. I’m trying to balance my time and spend one on one time with Lorenzo as much as I can right now and make sure he still feels loved and not left out but it is hard. I’ve bought a whole heap of craft activities to keep us both busy at home togther.

But I will say he does have his moment, his sweet moments of kisses and cuddles and wanting to hold his “baby” so I know he will soon come around and life will feel normal for him soon.

I’m hoping the weeks begin to ease, things begin to settle and life becomes some what normal.. which I know normal will never be the same again but a normal routine would be nice.

Elizabeth Ann Caesar ~ birth story

Elizabeth’s birth story began a whole week before she was even born. For my weekly check ups with my OB at the hospital which was my 39 week check up, something came up that gave him a little bit of a scare, my blood pressure was way too high and wouldn’t come down, I was sent straight from his office to the birthing suit to be checked over. The midwife & ob both said if anything came up they would have to break my waters and she will be born that day which was the 16th of April.

Thankfully my blood test came back normal, and all check ups were fine and baby girl was happy as could be, they actually couldn’t explain what had happened and why. I was given the choice to be induced that day anyway or if I wanted to book in for a different day. As much as I was so ready to meet her I didn’t want to give birth in that very moment well I was all alone as hubby was still at work but was trying to leave etc. I told the midwife I just needed time to prepare still and booked in for Friday the 24th of April which is her actual due date.

My reasons for picking her actual due date was not only is it her due date but it would be a Friday, with everything going on in the world hubby and I have decided that because he is still working and his boss doesn’t know for how much longer every day counts as you never know what happens. So hubby was only going to take two days off work and take his “father’s leave” which the dad’s get given two weeks paid leave but have the choice to take it straight away or later down the track, we both decided he would take it at a later date. So with this all being said being booked in for Friday to give birth means he got to take Friday & following Monday which means he got four days out of two days taken off work. Friday, Saturday, Sunday & Monday. But if I went into labor naturally this also didn’t matter.

24th of April 2020.

We arrived at the hospital 6am and were ready to get the show on the road.

By 7am my waters were broken by our OB and the rest was up too me & baby girl.

Contractions started pretty much straight away, I was already 3cm dilated when my OB broke my waters so my body had already been getting the show on the road.

At the beginning of my birth journey my midwife asked what my plans were and I said I wanted to try doing the whole thing naturally but I don’t know if I can do that. Her response was what kept me going my whole birth and her simple words were this, “if you tell your mind you can, then you can. If you tell your mind you can’t then you can’t.” It’s all a mind control thing.. She also said women’s bodies are actually designed to birth and that I can do this.

My contractions began off slow and steady and very fast got really strong and I needed gas to help with the pain. My body just took over, I felt like something was wrong as I needed to push but it had only been a few hours into my labouring journey. My midwife checked me and said no I was “5cm” dilated… 20 minutes later I was screaming… and not a cute girl scream it was a “I’m going to kill someone scream.” The gas wasn’t cutting it and I felt her head, my midwife checked me with my next contraction and she said yes that’s a head “She has hair” ( we had spoken earlier how my first had no hair for months.) She grabbed a midwife and called my OB to come. From the two minutes she walked away to do that and come back baby girls head was out!

By the time my OB got to the room miss Elizabeth was already on my chest and out.

My birth story is something I think hubby and I will laugh about for years to come. Six hours and it was all over with, drug free birth and no need for stitches!? Kind of mind blown… No it was not easy at all and poor hubby almost lost his hair and I think I killed my midwifes ear drums. But I am so fam proud of myself and I’m so proud of hubby he was so supportive, holding my hand every contraction, he just sat there well I pulled his hair out when baby girls head was crowning and I was screaming in his ear, rubbing my back when I needed extra relife I hit the jackpot. And my midwife! She was amazing, she held my hand, also sat and chatted, was definitely a big support person and I honestly cried when she left at the end of her shift because she was so amazing.

But our birth story was short and sweet. But forever thankful for the learning experience and teaching myself that I can do it no matter what fears cross my mind. And yes I’m feeling like a boss well recorving.

39 weeks of love, our last pregnancy update

This will be my last ever pregnancy update on this blog, I’ve blogged both pregnancy and as I’ve reached my final week of pregnancy forever it’s a sad one. Although hubby said he would like a third I’m 100% done with this chapter of my life, I have my baby boy Lorenzo and now our sweet baby girl and I think I’m thankful every single day for them both.

Both pregnancy journeys have been so very different in their own little ways.

My last week of pregnancy was a busy one and of course our sweet baby girl had to keep her mummy & daddy on her toes. My week began with a routine ob check in that I have weekly until she is born. The morning of my check up I woke to the worst back cramps ever and just feeling off and not in control of my own body, I called my mum as hubby went to work and I just knew I needed help with my son Lorenzo. I was picked up and spent my morning under the watchful eyes of my parents well they helped me care for my two year old. I had my OB appointment at 9:30am my dad didn’t want me to drive so he drove me and waited in the car, the new hospital rules are set in place and dad unfortunately wasn’t aloud inside. When I finally got to see my OB we had a chat and he soon asked me random questions which most of them I replied with “no” which was good. He then took my blood pressure and that’s when it all went down hill. It was way too high, but he said let’s see what she’s up too and go back to that, I has my scan and her heartbeat and everything looked fine and she even kicked. My OB checked my blood pressure and again same number and hadn’t gone down, he waited a few moments and tried again… still the same number, next thing I knew he was on the phone and I was told to make my way to the birthing rooms at the hospital.

I left and walked over to my dad who I then told to go home as I didn’t know how long this would take and I’ll keep them updated. Once I was in the birthing room the midwife was so lovely and caring she could tell I was scared and started a convastion with me, I asked her what was going on as I didn’t have much information from the doctor, she said that having high blood pressure this late in pregnancy sometimes doesn’t mean anything good and they just wanted to rule out things, I was given a cup to pee in, my bloods taken and half an hour on the reading machine for baby girl. My blood pressure was high still and the midwife called my OB. She came back and said if it doesn’t go down they will break my waters today and baby girl has to come out for her safety and mine. More time passed.. My bloods were fine, my pee showed high levels of protien and my blood pressure finally went down, my OB came and checked up on me and asked what I would like to do, I knew I didn’t & wasn’t ready for her to be here just yet and I asked if we could pick a different day. My OB made it clear he didn’t want me going over 40 weeka and we picked our day and he was happy for me to go home and rest.

So yes this week was a bag full of mixed emotions and scares but all worth it because at the end of the day as long as she is here and healthy that’s the only thing that matters.

This week’s pregnant systems.

• sickness – if I don’t eat I feel sick, if I eat I feel sick.. thrown up a few times as well.

• back cramps

• lower pressure in pelvis area.

• cramping front and back.

• feel like ive been leaking on and off all week.

• finally sleeping again at night even if it’s only for four hours at a time.

• leg cramps. Can’t lay on my legs for too long.

Last bump photo.

She’s been kicking my ribs like crazy and at night I feel all of her even her head straight down there when I try to roll over.

Thank you all for following my pregnancy journey and I’m hoping to share all the newborn stage all over again, but who knows we might have to wait and see.

We made it! 37 weeks pregnant

Just like my OB said this week too me, we finally are “full term.” She can now come when ever she feels like it!

This weeks pregnant systems:

I wish I could say I’ve felt heaps of pregnant systems this week but the bigger she gets and the less room she has everything has slowed down heaps and even her movements have also slowed down.

• reflux- I now go to bed every night taking two reflux tablets.. both pregnancies I’ve had bad reflux..

• pelvic pain.. worst feeling in the world is definitely trying to roll over and your in that much pain it takes a good five minutes to do so.

• less kicks from her and now it’s more I feel her when she moves her little bum or when she has the hiccups etc.

How my OB appointment went.

I now see my OB every week as I’m two weeks away from my due date, this week’s check up was little bit of a exciting one. I learnt that she is head right down, her head is actually in my pelvic bone and that’s why I’ve been feeling lots of pressure, hospital term is she is engaged and ready to go. All my blood works have come back normal and that’s so good to here. Now I just have to wait until she is here which Hopfully is very soon.

Her chubby face all up in my pelvis area

Bump update:

37 weeks and 3 days

I want to start taking side photos of my belly as I feel like she has dropped but only a little tiny bit and would love to compare bump photos but I keep forgetting to do this and probably won’t now it’s too late.

Getting ready for Labour.

Now that I’m 38 weeks as I’m writing this I’ve begun getting my body ready for child birth and this is how.

• working out daily and doing lots of pelvic exercises to help with child birth.

• walking daily to just get her to keep moving down lower.

• red raspberry tea I’ve been having two cups a day.

• working on my breathing.

Parent with us

As I sit here and start to write up this blog that’s been on my to do list for a while, I’m struggling to find a “catchy” title.. a title that brings in my followers and makes you want to read this blog. But all that comes into my mind is motherhood, this is motherhood this is how I parent my two year old.

Before I get into what this blog is actually about “even if your confused” it will all make sense very soon.i promise. I want to “sell” myself again I guess.. I’m a 26 year old women who is a mother to a little boy named Lorenzo Robert Caesar who is two and a very inderpent little boy who knows what he wants, I’m also a wife both my hunny and I have been together for seven years and we are far from perfect but we work well togther as a couple and a team when it comes to parenting. Our world is about to become a whole lot busyer as I’m currently 36 weeks pregnant with our baby girl. Oh and we have a very active dog named zues! And that’s how we became the “Caesar family.”

The Caesar family

When we firsted welcomes our son into this crazy thing we call life, our whole world changed the way we were as a couple and how we handled situations changed. Before hubby and I had children we really struggled with how we communicated with each other, a lot of it was me and bringing my past relationships into every situation which for better understanding, my relationship before hubby was with a guy who only saw me “so to speak” when we had fights and we had big fights. Our whole relationship “if you can even call it that.” Was just fighting every day it was a very toxic and unhappy environment which is all I’ll go into detail about. But with hubby I really took those unhealthy habits from my past and just couldn’t shake them from what was a amazing relationship, too the point a broke up with my hubby because he was too nice which it wasn’t until he was gone for me to see and realise he was everything I needed and more.

Our first year togther

When we used to have a fight it was always me who would just blow up straight away and it wasn’t until later on when I realised that was me just putting those walls up straight away and trying to protect myself.. hubby soon realised what I was doing and every time we had a fight or disagreement at the beginning of our relationship he would always try and reassure me that this was try a disagreement and we would work it out and be ok.

Fast forward a few years and now we are parents the way we have disagreements is completely different. When we first became parents we both really had to adjust and this of course meant learning how to parent togther which was hard at first, but two years later we finally have it togther “sometimes.” We sat down one night and spoke about everything and one thing we both could agree on what what we said in front of our children would have long lasting effects and that we didn’t want to put any negative impact on our children.

For us this means when we both disagree with each other at the time and are in front of anyone we just have this “look” I can’t explain the look but we just know each other’s looks and it’s like we make a sticky note about it in our heads and always bring it up when we are in privite rather air our laundry in front of our son or friends and family. This works well for us and trust me it took as a really long time to get to that place of we both sir down and let each other have our say rather just both thinking we are right and the other person is wrong.

I truly am a believer that once you and your partner have found each other’s “love language” and a way to communicate each other’s frustrations in positive ways, it shows in how you parent and work with each other then without.

But please don’t take this as I think we have work out and cracked parenting and our relationship and think we are perfect because trust me we probably do more “wrong” then “right” sometimes but I’m saying it works for us. This is our journey into parenthood and marriage and hubby and I have both have been very intentional with how we communicate and parent our children. We both look at our journey and where we have come from to where we are now and what/ how we want our children to see us and remember.

Our parenting style is simple we choose to do things togther, we put our family first. The way we couple is also simple we choose to always communicate togther and listen and not air our dirty laundry in front of ours but with each other.

When I say we parent togther I really do mean this. One thing we asked each other when we first gave birth to our son Lorenzo was “how do we want our children to grow.?” For us it was simple we both agreed that we wanted our children to always feel loved no matter what. We want out children to grow up remembering those little things such as the extra cuddles, extra time spent at the dinner tables being more internal with our children and always putting them first. For us this means we both tuck our son in at night, we both kiss him and say we love him, we both teach our son right from wrong, we both spend that one on one time with him.

When our sweet baby girl comes we both know we will have to change and adjust to a family of four but I believe we can and we will be just as successful with how we cope with whatever life gives us just as much as we already are now.

The Caesar family ♡

35 week pregnancy update

Things are getting real for us, gone are the weeks that they felt so slow and I was pregnant forever… now I’m writing up my 35th pregnancy weekly update well I’m “late” and already a few days into week 36..

But here is my 35 week pregnancy update better late than never.

This weeks pregnant systems:

• she is deffiently lower! This week I’ve struggled walking long distances as she gets right down low.

• having a full time sleep in the thing of a past

• reflux it hits really bad when I’m lying in my bed at night.

Bump update:

Im 100% ready for baby girl to make her arrival into the world as I’m so over being pregnant. But I know she is safer in my belly right now with everything going on in the world right now.

It Was my last week of work this week and as sad as I was leaving my children in my class room I’m so happy to be resting and relaxing a little before baby girl is here.

34 weeks down 5 weeks left too go

As the weeks keep moving along and I keep getting closer and closer to giving birth I’m slowly finding myself more and more scared for all the unknowns.

Yes I’ve been through child birth before so I know what to expect this time so that part doesn’t scare me as much, but after child birth after the hospital and when we finally get to go home part!? That’s what scares me the most… hubby just had a massive change in careers “for the better of our family and future.” But with this it means he only just began full time work with his new company so any chance of him having time off to help is a thing of the past. This wasn’t our plan for him to get a new job as he had one already that paid good. But this new company asked for him, his boss had to fight for him a little and already he has been given so many benefits that no other company has ever offered him before. So we know it was the right move for our family but yes it doesn’t make it easier for me knowing he will have two days with me in hospital and straight back at work.

My next thing that I’m scared about is if I’ll even be a good mother to two children, I don’t want Lorenzo to feel left out or that he’s not loved because he will always be my first born and my baby boy. How do parents split there love between children? How do mothers get two children in the car at the same time with such ease and grace? How does your toddler sleep at night well a new born baby wakes up 3 times a night? This is where my mind is traveling too right now. This is where I begin to get scared thinking about the unknow. So yes the weeks are going much faster until her arrival but I just wish they would slow down a little bit. I wish I could breath for a second, spend a little more time with my sweet baby boy before our world is changed forever.

This weeks pregnant systems:

• leg cramps in my sleep “So painful.”

• waking up at nights and having trouble sleeping

• pee stops a lot!

• nesting

• mood swings very emotional

• pelvis pain as she is now head down and I find the more I walk the lower she goes and the more painful it gets.

• can’t bend at all as my reflux gets worse.

• shooting sharp pains straight down

• cold and flu symptoms at night, sore throat but I’m fine durning the day.

Bump update.

34 weeks

I’m off to see my OB next week when I’m 35 weeks pregnant so I’m excited to see what will happen and what he has to say about baby girl, at our last check up she was head down and he had said she will now probably stay head down until she’s ready to come which didn’t mean was soon just meant that she’s in the correct position and when it was time she would come. Everything was looking good and healthy which I was super happy about. So I can’t wait to see what this check up with my OB will bring.

Bring on 35 weeks pregnant!