Two months earth side

Our little woman is two months and I can’t deal. With Lorenzo I always thought the months went so slow and the newborn stage would never end and now I’m sad because the months just keep flying by and pretty soon she will be one and my baby days will officially be over for good.

Two months and this is how we are going.

I’ve definitely adjusted to being a mother of two and feel more balanced than what I was like the first month. Some days are hard and other days I’ve got all my ducks in a row and killing this whole motherhood gig.

We finally are having a bit of a routine in the Caesar household and now working with Elizabeth and her cues. The only thing I still need to work on is time for myself, finding time to have alone time is so important for me to stay a happy mum and not feel overwhelmed and at the moment trying to find five minutes to myself is still so hard but again this will take time and slowly come again. 

How breastfeeding is going?

Two months in and breastfeeding is finally feeling normal and natural for me. Elizabeth is doing well with her night feeding and has a big five hour break from her first feed to the next. She now feeds from

6:30-7pm she has her first feed.

7:30pm her and I go into the room and turn the lights off and close the door away from her loud brother. This is when I pat her and play soothing music in the background. 

She sleeps from 7:30pm-11pm.

Feeds until about 11:30pm or midnight then goes back down until 3:30am.

Her last feed is 5am then she’s back asleep until 7am.

So yes as you can see she does well at night with her feeds and this works for us.

Unfortunately I can’t say the same about her day feeds. If she could be feeding all day long she would be. But I’ve been pretty strict with her this past month and we are working on bigger breaks in-between her day feeds. I’m trying to get her into a every 3 hour feeding routine so I make sure I have written the time her feeds end and I will count from that time for when her next feed will be. 

My sleeping beauty

Elizabeth and sleep was a battle in the beginning but I’m happy to report she’s improved heaps this month. Last month she was only sleeping on me and hated her bed, this month she’s sleeping so well at night and in her own bed it’s amazing. Unfortunately we are still working on date naps in her own bed but again this will take time and it’s all about baby steps.

Six weeks check up.

Elizabeth had her six weeks check up and shots, we learned that she’s put on 2kgs but we also learnt she is tounge tied. Unfortunately this means she needs surgery to correct it. We booked this in for the 2nd of July and hopefully this will mean dummies and bottles as she hasn’t been able to take these two items and is very fussy most of the time.

Postpartum body update.

Two months from today I gave birth, I’ve been slowly working on my health & fitness. I’ve been on youfoodz since our one month update and have been keeping up with my fitness. Unfortunately I did have one bad week when my lady friend began for the first time since before pregnancy, I think that week I just craved sugars and soft drink and gave in. But I soon got on track.

How’s Lorenzo taking his big brother duties.

Lorenzo is such a good brother to his baby sister. When I was pregnant I’m going to be honest I really didn’t think he would be good but I was proven wrong by him. He is forever giving cuddles & kisses and is very protective to the point he will yell at you that she’s his baby girl.

Two month milestones

° Elizabeth can hold her own neck up for a few minutes by herself.

° smiles and giggles

° can focus objects and people around her.

° longer sleeps in-between feeds at night

° starting to get her baby talk on.

° Elizabeth has found her hands and feet.

Our first month as a family of four 🌷

It’s already been a month!? It feels like just last week I gave birth to our sweet baby girl.

As i sit here and write up this blog I have baby girl sleeping in my arms after a feed and my two year old eating breakfast well watching his morning kid shows. This month has been one big old blur with me trying to juggle being a mother of one to now a mother of two!? I still can’t believe how much my life has changed “again” in the space of a month.

So how has our first month been?

Our first month with Elizabeth has been a busy first month, I have struggled trying to adjust from being a mother of one too a mother of two, it’s this crazy feeling you just can’t explain until you become a parent of two.

You always see those parents with two children all over your social media’s looking like they have their sh*t togther and make it look so easy, well I’m sorry to say it’s all a lie. It’s so easy to share the great moments of parenting and not share the truths.

This for me was a struggle into parenting two kids, because I honesty felt like I was failing because over on my Instagram all I would see was how easy it was for other mothers and I was crying everyday and struggling to find time to have a shower and shave my legs.

But I’m happy to report after the first 3 weeks were over I began to feel like myself again, I started getting the hang of parenting a two year old who throws tantrums from time to time and a newborn who some days just wants to be on the boob all day long.

How is breastfeeding going?

If you haven’t had a read of my breastfeeding blog I did cover this whole topic. Breastfeeding with my two-year old just didn’t happen “which explained in detail over on that blog.” But because of my first experience I really didn’t think breastfeeding would happen the second time around and yet this time it happened so naturally and although it was hard work the first few weeks Elizabeth and I are both doing well on our breastfeeding journey together and I’m loving those extra moments between herself and I.

Too sleep or not to sleep.

Our first month with Elizabeth and sleep unfortunately hasn’t been a win for us. She does well with her day sleeps away from me, she will happily sleep in her bassist or swing but our night sleeps in the bassist have become non-existent. But if I have been honest I haven’t really been fighting her on this and have enjoyed our chest to chest sleeps, although she doesn’t do well sleeping in her own bed when she sleeps she’s pretty good. She now sleeps longer intervals during the night but she does have her “fussy” hour from 3:30am-4:30am. 

I have decided to buy a sleep help guid now that she’s a month old I do want to now focus on making her a routine something that will help me and help her, I also will be trying to get her to sleep in her bassist over the weekend well hubby is home and I can have that extra time and help. Lorenzo our first-born was also the same and we had to work with him to get him to sleep on his own, took us a few days and was long and hard but we got there and I know we can with Elizabeth as well. 

If the shoe fits?

I swear Lorenzo had out-grown all his new-born clothing by the time he was one month, just from being a super long baby. So again I don’t why I did this but when buying clothing for Elizabeth I didn’t spend much on newborn stuff and began buying for 0-3 months which turns out I’m still struggling to fit her in newborn outfits as some are still too big.

One month milestones.

• Elizabeth is already trying to hold her head & neck up on her own.

• Elizabeth can turn her head from side to side already

Only child no more?

When we first brought Elizabeth home Lorenzo was half and half about his feelings towards his new baby sister. Now we are month in and his love has grown but he still doesn’t understand. Lorenzo still is adjusting to having to wait for something he needs or wants because I’ll be busy breastfeeding or changing baby sister, but the way both hubby and I look at this is his learning that he doesn’t get everything he wants straight away anymore… now if only we could get him to share and all will be right in the Caesar household.

My postpartum body?

I’ve cut out some bad habits due to breastfeeding but I haven’t really forced or focused too much on healthy eating and working out, this first month has been crazy and it has been more about getting myself in the correct head space and adjusting too my new life with two kids.

But I would love to point out breastfeeding did help me lose a little bit of that tummy which was a nice little surprise.

But I can’t wait to keep you all updated on my postpartum journey, I’ve just did a massive food shop with youfoodz online and as gyms are still closed I’ve gone out and bought myself heaps of gym gear as well as buying Kayla Itsines “sweat app for my at home workouts.

This month has gone so fast and has come with some bad days mixed with the good days. I’ve loved becoming a mother or two and I’m thankful each and every day for two healthy children I can’t wait to see what the next 11 months have to offer.

breastfeeding journey 2.0

Second pregnancy, second child, second time breastfeeding..

If you’ve followed my blog since my first pregnancy with my now two-year old Lorenzo then you will already know how my breastfeeding journey went with him, and if not it’s ok I’m going to refresh everyone now

Lorenzo’s birth was definitely different from Elizabeth. Lorenzo was a brow birth ” I’ll add in what that means hear” from Google. 

Brow presentation happens when your baby’s neck and head are slightly extended (deflexed), as if your baby is looking up. The ideal position for your baby to be born in is with her chin tucked into her chest (flexed position), so her head is well down.”

Because of this Lorenzo’s heart rate dropped a few times and he became distressed, once he was born he went for tests, this is how we found out his sugar levels were extremely low. He went down at the nursery too be watched over for the first 48 hours, I also unfortunately didn’t have anything in my boobs to give.. it was weird it was like my body just didn’t know how to make even the stuff before your breast Milk comes in. 

Lorenzo needed to put on weight and fast. We were told that if he didn’t pick up above such number they would have to put him on a drip. Of course in this moment his health was way more important to us then breastfeeding worries so Lorenzo went on formula to help him grow and stay healthy. 

This was super hard for me, as a first time mother I never imaged I would struggle to breast feed, you see all over women’s social media’s how amazing breastfeeding is and how natural they all look doing it… I felt deflated this didn’t happen for me. 

When I was in my third trimester with Elizabeth I was preparing myself to have the same struggles breastfeeding. I began buying bottles and formula so that when we were discharged from hospital we wouldn’t be running around trying to get these items last minute. 

But from the moment Elizabeth was born, she knew what to do and I had the supply she needed from day one. 

But I still struggled breastfeeding, again it didn’t feel natural. It hurt the first few days, I felt she wasn’t latching on correctly and I began asking myself “will this always hurt?” “When will this start feeling easier?”

I was running on little sleep, sore boobs and running after a two-year old during the day. I was very emotional and all for the wrong reasons. 

But two weeks into breastfeeding Elizabeth and I can safely say it no longer hurts and the bond her and I now share is this amazing feeling, I don’t know how long I will continue to breast feed Elizabeth these are questions I don’t have the answers to right this moment. But for now I’m enjoying these little moments between both myself and Elizabeth.

I would Loved to here some of my followers did you guys ever feel the same way?

Elizabeth Ann Caesar ~ birth story

Elizabeth’s birth story began a whole week before she was even born. For my weekly check ups with my OB at the hospital which was my 39 week check up, something came up that gave him a little bit of a scare, my blood pressure was way too high and wouldn’t come down, I was sent straight from his office to the birthing suit to be checked over. The midwife & ob both said if anything came up they would have to break my waters and she will be born that day which was the 16th of April.

Thankfully my blood test came back normal, and all check ups were fine and baby girl was happy as could be, they actually couldn’t explain what had happened and why. I was given the choice to be induced that day anyway or if I wanted to book in for a different day. As much as I was so ready to meet her I didn’t want to give birth in that very moment well I was all alone as hubby was still at work but was trying to leave etc. I told the midwife I just needed time to prepare still and booked in for Friday the 24th of April which is her actual due date.

My reasons for picking her actual due date was not only is it her due date but it would be a Friday, with everything going on in the world hubby and I have decided that because he is still working and his boss doesn’t know for how much longer every day counts as you never know what happens. So hubby was only going to take two days off work and take his “father’s leave” which the dad’s get given two weeks paid leave but have the choice to take it straight away or later down the track, we both decided he would take it at a later date. So with this all being said being booked in for Friday to give birth means he got to take Friday & following Monday which means he got four days out of two days taken off work. Friday, Saturday, Sunday & Monday. But if I went into labor naturally this also didn’t matter.

24th of April 2020.

We arrived at the hospital 6am and were ready to get the show on the road.

By 7am my waters were broken by our OB and the rest was up too me & baby girl.

Contractions started pretty much straight away, I was already 3cm dilated when my OB broke my waters so my body had already been getting the show on the road.

At the beginning of my birth journey my midwife asked what my plans were and I said I wanted to try doing the whole thing naturally but I don’t know if I can do that. Her response was what kept me going my whole birth and her simple words were this, “if you tell your mind you can, then you can. If you tell your mind you can’t then you can’t.” It’s all a mind control thing.. She also said women’s bodies are actually designed to birth and that I can do this.

My contractions began off slow and steady and very fast got really strong and I needed gas to help with the pain. My body just took over, I felt like something was wrong as I needed to push but it had only been a few hours into my labouring journey. My midwife checked me and said no I was “5cm” dilated… 20 minutes later I was screaming… and not a cute girl scream it was a “I’m going to kill someone scream.” The gas wasn’t cutting it and I felt her head, my midwife checked me with my next contraction and she said yes that’s a head “She has hair” ( we had spoken earlier how my first had no hair for months.) She grabbed a midwife and called my OB to come. From the two minutes she walked away to do that and come back baby girls head was out!

By the time my OB got to the room miss Elizabeth was already on my chest and out.

My birth story is something I think hubby and I will laugh about for years to come. Six hours and it was all over with, drug free birth and no need for stitches!? Kind of mind blown… No it was not easy at all and poor hubby almost lost his hair and I think I killed my midwifes ear drums. But I am so fam proud of myself and I’m so proud of hubby he was so supportive, holding my hand every contraction, he just sat there well I pulled his hair out when baby girls head was crowning and I was screaming in his ear, rubbing my back when I needed extra relife I hit the jackpot. And my midwife! She was amazing, she held my hand, also sat and chatted, was definitely a big support person and I honestly cried when she left at the end of her shift because she was so amazing.

But our birth story was short and sweet. But forever thankful for the learning experience and teaching myself that I can do it no matter what fears cross my mind. And yes I’m feeling like a boss well recorving.

39 weeks of love, our last pregnancy update

This will be my last ever pregnancy update on this blog, I’ve blogged both pregnancy and as I’ve reached my final week of pregnancy forever it’s a sad one. Although hubby said he would like a third I’m 100% done with this chapter of my life, I have my baby boy Lorenzo and now our sweet baby girl and I think I’m thankful every single day for them both.

Both pregnancy journeys have been so very different in their own little ways.

My last week of pregnancy was a busy one and of course our sweet baby girl had to keep her mummy & daddy on her toes. My week began with a routine ob check in that I have weekly until she is born. The morning of my check up I woke to the worst back cramps ever and just feeling off and not in control of my own body, I called my mum as hubby went to work and I just knew I needed help with my son Lorenzo. I was picked up and spent my morning under the watchful eyes of my parents well they helped me care for my two year old. I had my OB appointment at 9:30am my dad didn’t want me to drive so he drove me and waited in the car, the new hospital rules are set in place and dad unfortunately wasn’t aloud inside. When I finally got to see my OB we had a chat and he soon asked me random questions which most of them I replied with “no” which was good. He then took my blood pressure and that’s when it all went down hill. It was way too high, but he said let’s see what she’s up too and go back to that, I has my scan and her heartbeat and everything looked fine and she even kicked. My OB checked my blood pressure and again same number and hadn’t gone down, he waited a few moments and tried again… still the same number, next thing I knew he was on the phone and I was told to make my way to the birthing rooms at the hospital.

I left and walked over to my dad who I then told to go home as I didn’t know how long this would take and I’ll keep them updated. Once I was in the birthing room the midwife was so lovely and caring she could tell I was scared and started a convastion with me, I asked her what was going on as I didn’t have much information from the doctor, she said that having high blood pressure this late in pregnancy sometimes doesn’t mean anything good and they just wanted to rule out things, I was given a cup to pee in, my bloods taken and half an hour on the reading machine for baby girl. My blood pressure was high still and the midwife called my OB. She came back and said if it doesn’t go down they will break my waters today and baby girl has to come out for her safety and mine. More time passed.. My bloods were fine, my pee showed high levels of protien and my blood pressure finally went down, my OB came and checked up on me and asked what I would like to do, I knew I didn’t & wasn’t ready for her to be here just yet and I asked if we could pick a different day. My OB made it clear he didn’t want me going over 40 weeka and we picked our day and he was happy for me to go home and rest.

So yes this week was a bag full of mixed emotions and scares but all worth it because at the end of the day as long as she is here and healthy that’s the only thing that matters.

This week’s pregnant systems.

• sickness – if I don’t eat I feel sick, if I eat I feel sick.. thrown up a few times as well.

• back cramps

• lower pressure in pelvis area.

• cramping front and back.

• feel like ive been leaking on and off all week.

• finally sleeping again at night even if it’s only for four hours at a time.

• leg cramps. Can’t lay on my legs for too long.

Last bump photo.

She’s been kicking my ribs like crazy and at night I feel all of her even her head straight down there when I try to roll over.

Thank you all for following my pregnancy journey and I’m hoping to share all the newborn stage all over again, but who knows we might have to wait and see.

We made it! 37 weeks pregnant

Just like my OB said this week too me, we finally are “full term.” She can now come when ever she feels like it!

This weeks pregnant systems:

I wish I could say I’ve felt heaps of pregnant systems this week but the bigger she gets and the less room she has everything has slowed down heaps and even her movements have also slowed down.

• reflux- I now go to bed every night taking two reflux tablets.. both pregnancies I’ve had bad reflux..

• pelvic pain.. worst feeling in the world is definitely trying to roll over and your in that much pain it takes a good five minutes to do so.

• less kicks from her and now it’s more I feel her when she moves her little bum or when she has the hiccups etc.

How my OB appointment went.

I now see my OB every week as I’m two weeks away from my due date, this week’s check up was little bit of a exciting one. I learnt that she is head right down, her head is actually in my pelvic bone and that’s why I’ve been feeling lots of pressure, hospital term is she is engaged and ready to go. All my blood works have come back normal and that’s so good to here. Now I just have to wait until she is here which Hopfully is very soon.

Her chubby face all up in my pelvis area

Bump update:

37 weeks and 3 days

I want to start taking side photos of my belly as I feel like she has dropped but only a little tiny bit and would love to compare bump photos but I keep forgetting to do this and probably won’t now it’s too late.

Getting ready for Labour.

Now that I’m 38 weeks as I’m writing this I’ve begun getting my body ready for child birth and this is how.

• working out daily and doing lots of pelvic exercises to help with child birth.

• walking daily to just get her to keep moving down lower.

• red raspberry tea I’ve been having two cups a day.

• working on my breathing.

Scared to give birth at such a devastating time

I wasn’t going to comment or make such a blog about the covid- 19 as I think everyone clearly knows about what’s happening in the world right now and you really don’t need one more person reminding you to take better care of ourselves. But as I went food shopping today and saw these two elderly people struggling to walk and push their own trolly and all I wanted to do was offer help.. which I stilled did even knowing they can’t accept it, that moment was probably the hardest for me and I began to cry.

To top everything off we received a email from our hospital with some updated rules that are now set in place to help protect myself and baby girl when she’s born and other hospital staff.

No longer will I have family members come and visit myself or baby girl or friends as I’m only aloud one person daily which clearly will be hubby as he wants to be with his new child as much as possible. But no children under the age of 16 are aloud in hospital which means my two year old son can’t visit and meet his new baby sister until we are home, I get why these rules are in place and I’m 100% ok with that but it still hurts.

My sweet baby girls birth will always be a story and not for the right reasons, I will always look back at this when my child was born when the virus was so bad the whole world was put on lock down, I will always remember that my mother was at my son’s birth but missed my daughter’s and not because she wanted to but because she had too. I’ll always remember being alone in a hospital room well waiting to take my baby girl home and in a safe place.

I understand why these rules are set in place and I agree with all of them for the safety and wellbeing of everyone right now but it doesn’t make it easier for me, a moment for me that I was looking forward too has now changed too a moment I’m scared about, a moment I feel anxious about. A moment I feel worried about. Which I shouldn’t feel this way about the birth of my second but that’s just the reality of the world right now. So now I’m trying to prepare myself for the birth of my sweet baby girl in a completely new setting.

My new birth plan at this stage is too just be ok, to breath and try and take in all the good moments and let go of those other feelings. To try and not get too inside my own head when it’s just me and baby girl in hospital… that’s my new birth plan.

35 week pregnancy update

Things are getting real for us, gone are the weeks that they felt so slow and I was pregnant forever… now I’m writing up my 35th pregnancy weekly update well I’m “late” and already a few days into week 36..

But here is my 35 week pregnancy update better late than never.

This weeks pregnant systems:

• she is deffiently lower! This week I’ve struggled walking long distances as she gets right down low.

• having a full time sleep in the thing of a past

• reflux it hits really bad when I’m lying in my bed at night.

Bump update:

Im 100% ready for baby girl to make her arrival into the world as I’m so over being pregnant. But I know she is safer in my belly right now with everything going on in the world right now.

It Was my last week of work this week and as sad as I was leaving my children in my class room I’m so happy to be resting and relaxing a little before baby girl is here.

34 weeks down 5 weeks left too go

As the weeks keep moving along and I keep getting closer and closer to giving birth I’m slowly finding myself more and more scared for all the unknowns.

Yes I’ve been through child birth before so I know what to expect this time so that part doesn’t scare me as much, but after child birth after the hospital and when we finally get to go home part!? That’s what scares me the most… hubby just had a massive change in careers “for the better of our family and future.” But with this it means he only just began full time work with his new company so any chance of him having time off to help is a thing of the past. This wasn’t our plan for him to get a new job as he had one already that paid good. But this new company asked for him, his boss had to fight for him a little and already he has been given so many benefits that no other company has ever offered him before. So we know it was the right move for our family but yes it doesn’t make it easier for me knowing he will have two days with me in hospital and straight back at work.

My next thing that I’m scared about is if I’ll even be a good mother to two children, I don’t want Lorenzo to feel left out or that he’s not loved because he will always be my first born and my baby boy. How do parents split there love between children? How do mothers get two children in the car at the same time with such ease and grace? How does your toddler sleep at night well a new born baby wakes up 3 times a night? This is where my mind is traveling too right now. This is where I begin to get scared thinking about the unknow. So yes the weeks are going much faster until her arrival but I just wish they would slow down a little bit. I wish I could breath for a second, spend a little more time with my sweet baby boy before our world is changed forever.

This weeks pregnant systems:

• leg cramps in my sleep “So painful.”

• waking up at nights and having trouble sleeping

• pee stops a lot!

• nesting

• mood swings very emotional

• pelvis pain as she is now head down and I find the more I walk the lower she goes and the more painful it gets.

• can’t bend at all as my reflux gets worse.

• shooting sharp pains straight down

• cold and flu symptoms at night, sore throat but I’m fine durning the day.

Bump update.

34 weeks

I’m off to see my OB next week when I’m 35 weeks pregnant so I’m excited to see what will happen and what he has to say about baby girl, at our last check up she was head down and he had said she will now probably stay head down until she’s ready to come which didn’t mean was soon just meant that she’s in the correct position and when it was time she would come. Everything was looking good and healthy which I was super happy about. So I can’t wait to see what this check up with my OB will bring.

Bring on 35 weeks pregnant!

33 weeks

As the weeks keep passing along I’m getting more and more ready to meet our sweet baby girl. I’m actually starting to get my hopes up over and over again that this week will finally be the week she comes even though I know I’m only 33 weeks and it’s still way to early but I think I’m just getting over it.

This weeks pregnant systems have been.

• Braxton hicks

• on and off sleep

• sickness and diarrhea on and off.

• engrey levels low.

• everything is starting to feel tight and I’m struggling to breath and gone are the days of sitting on the floor with the kids at work or with my son at home.

• I actually feel like I’m losing weight like my face is getting slimer and I’m not holding that water weight as much as I was last week.

Ob check up:

Every two weeks I see my OB at the hospital and this week was my check up. Baby girl is doing well she’s 70% cooked which apparently is a little on the chubby side but her head is still measuring smaller but blood flow etc is good. Her little head is now in my pelvis area and he said she will probably stay head down now until she’s ready to come and make it into the world.

Don’t ask what I’m looking at because I don’t know.

The weeks seem to be going slower and I’m starting to get more and more tired of pregnancy.. I’m trying so hard to enjoy these last few weeks as I’ll never get them back but man I can’t wait for baby girl to be here.

Can’t wait to see what 34 weeks of pregnancy brings me.