Elizabeth Ann Caesar ~ birth story

Elizabeth’s birth story began a whole week before she was even born. For my weekly check ups with my OB at the hospital which was my 39 week check up, something came up that gave him a little bit of a scare, my blood pressure was way too high and wouldn’t come down, I was sent straight from his office to the birthing suit to be checked over. The midwife & ob both said if anything came up they would have to break my waters and she will be born that day which was the 16th of April.

Thankfully my blood test came back normal, and all check ups were fine and baby girl was happy as could be, they actually couldn’t explain what had happened and why. I was given the choice to be induced that day anyway or if I wanted to book in for a different day. As much as I was so ready to meet her I didn’t want to give birth in that very moment well I was all alone as hubby was still at work but was trying to leave etc. I told the midwife I just needed time to prepare still and booked in for Friday the 24th of April which is her actual due date.

My reasons for picking her actual due date was not only is it her due date but it would be a Friday, with everything going on in the world hubby and I have decided that because he is still working and his boss doesn’t know for how much longer every day counts as you never know what happens. So hubby was only going to take two days off work and take his “father’s leave” which the dad’s get given two weeks paid leave but have the choice to take it straight away or later down the track, we both decided he would take it at a later date. So with this all being said being booked in for Friday to give birth means he got to take Friday & following Monday which means he got four days out of two days taken off work. Friday, Saturday, Sunday & Monday. But if I went into labor naturally this also didn’t matter.

24th of April 2020.

We arrived at the hospital 6am and were ready to get the show on the road.

By 7am my waters were broken by our OB and the rest was up too me & baby girl.

Contractions started pretty much straight away, I was already 3cm dilated when my OB broke my waters so my body had already been getting the show on the road.

At the beginning of my birth journey my midwife asked what my plans were and I said I wanted to try doing the whole thing naturally but I don’t know if I can do that. Her response was what kept me going my whole birth and her simple words were this, “if you tell your mind you can, then you can. If you tell your mind you can’t then you can’t.” It’s all a mind control thing.. She also said women’s bodies are actually designed to birth and that I can do this.

My contractions began off slow and steady and very fast got really strong and I needed gas to help with the pain. My body just took over, I felt like something was wrong as I needed to push but it had only been a few hours into my labouring journey. My midwife checked me and said no I was “5cm” dilated… 20 minutes later I was screaming… and not a cute girl scream it was a “I’m going to kill someone scream.” The gas wasn’t cutting it and I felt her head, my midwife checked me with my next contraction and she said yes that’s a head “She has hair” ( we had spoken earlier how my first had no hair for months.) She grabbed a midwife and called my OB to come. From the two minutes she walked away to do that and come back baby girls head was out!

By the time my OB got to the room miss Elizabeth was already on my chest and out.

My birth story is something I think hubby and I will laugh about for years to come. Six hours and it was all over with, drug free birth and no need for stitches!? Kind of mind blown… No it was not easy at all and poor hubby almost lost his hair and I think I killed my midwifes ear drums. But I am so fam proud of myself and I’m so proud of hubby he was so supportive, holding my hand every contraction, he just sat there well I pulled his hair out when baby girls head was crowning and I was screaming in his ear, rubbing my back when I needed extra relife I hit the jackpot. And my midwife! She was amazing, she held my hand, also sat and chatted, was definitely a big support person and I honestly cried when she left at the end of her shift because she was so amazing.

But our birth story was short and sweet. But forever thankful for the learning experience and teaching myself that I can do it no matter what fears cross my mind. And yes I’m feeling like a boss well recorving.

39 weeks of love, our last pregnancy update

This will be my last ever pregnancy update on this blog, I’ve blogged both pregnancy and as I’ve reached my final week of pregnancy forever it’s a sad one. Although hubby said he would like a third I’m 100% done with this chapter of my life, I have my baby boy Lorenzo and now our sweet baby girl and I think I’m thankful every single day for them both.

Both pregnancy journeys have been so very different in their own little ways.

My last week of pregnancy was a busy one and of course our sweet baby girl had to keep her mummy & daddy on her toes. My week began with a routine ob check in that I have weekly until she is born. The morning of my check up I woke to the worst back cramps ever and just feeling off and not in control of my own body, I called my mum as hubby went to work and I just knew I needed help with my son Lorenzo. I was picked up and spent my morning under the watchful eyes of my parents well they helped me care for my two year old. I had my OB appointment at 9:30am my dad didn’t want me to drive so he drove me and waited in the car, the new hospital rules are set in place and dad unfortunately wasn’t aloud inside. When I finally got to see my OB we had a chat and he soon asked me random questions which most of them I replied with “no” which was good. He then took my blood pressure and that’s when it all went down hill. It was way too high, but he said let’s see what she’s up too and go back to that, I has my scan and her heartbeat and everything looked fine and she even kicked. My OB checked my blood pressure and again same number and hadn’t gone down, he waited a few moments and tried again… still the same number, next thing I knew he was on the phone and I was told to make my way to the birthing rooms at the hospital.

I left and walked over to my dad who I then told to go home as I didn’t know how long this would take and I’ll keep them updated. Once I was in the birthing room the midwife was so lovely and caring she could tell I was scared and started a convastion with me, I asked her what was going on as I didn’t have much information from the doctor, she said that having high blood pressure this late in pregnancy sometimes doesn’t mean anything good and they just wanted to rule out things, I was given a cup to pee in, my bloods taken and half an hour on the reading machine for baby girl. My blood pressure was high still and the midwife called my OB. She came back and said if it doesn’t go down they will break my waters today and baby girl has to come out for her safety and mine. More time passed.. My bloods were fine, my pee showed high levels of protien and my blood pressure finally went down, my OB came and checked up on me and asked what I would like to do, I knew I didn’t & wasn’t ready for her to be here just yet and I asked if we could pick a different day. My OB made it clear he didn’t want me going over 40 weeka and we picked our day and he was happy for me to go home and rest.

So yes this week was a bag full of mixed emotions and scares but all worth it because at the end of the day as long as she is here and healthy that’s the only thing that matters.

This week’s pregnant systems.

• sickness – if I don’t eat I feel sick, if I eat I feel sick.. thrown up a few times as well.

• back cramps

• lower pressure in pelvis area.

• cramping front and back.

• feel like ive been leaking on and off all week.

• finally sleeping again at night even if it’s only for four hours at a time.

• leg cramps. Can’t lay on my legs for too long.

Last bump photo.

She’s been kicking my ribs like crazy and at night I feel all of her even her head straight down there when I try to roll over.

Thank you all for following my pregnancy journey and I’m hoping to share all the newborn stage all over again, but who knows we might have to wait and see.

38 weeks pregnant update

38 weeks and still pregnant, will this pregnancy have any kind of end date? I feel like I’ve been pregnant forever now. as I sit here at 11pm at night “wish I could say I was wearing more then just my underwear.” I’m feeling a little deflated… with my first born Lorenzo he was two weeks over due and I had to be induced, with our second I really had hoped this wouldn’t be the case and the more the weeks are passing and still no sign of our sweet baby girl the more I’m starting to feel she will be just like her brother and late.

Facts according to my pregnancy app:

1. your baby is the size of a mini watermelon… ” can you even get mini watermelons?”

2. My baby’s lungs have strengthened and her vocal cords are ready to shine “AKA she is ready to cry the house down.”

3. her weight right now should be 7lbs

Pregnancy symptoms this week have been.

1. This week saw a massive change in my sleep pattern and I can now safety say sleeping at night has become a thing of the past, I’ve tried sleep music a calming bath before bed and nope nothing works.. Oh I’ve even tried colouring in.. so yes Insomnia is very much a thing and when the app tells you to read and that will sooth you too sleep, the app lied too you.

2. Reflux which is been the most consent thing to stick around for both whole pregnancies and I can’t wait for the day she is born and the reflux will be gone.

3. Gone are the days I get out of bed or roll in bed or do anything for that matter that makes me look like a goddess to my husband… and hello to the days of moans and groans and getting stuck mixed with reflux and really sore pelvis pressure and looking like a beached whale.

4. Lots of pressure down in my pelvis area and its killing me, her head seems to be fully engaged and ready yet she just sits there and builds pressure and does nothing for me…

5. Loss of appetite, most nights this week I’ve had to force myself to eat dinner and some nights I just go without, I find it easier to just have little snacks here and there during the day and night and it seems to work for me.

6. Feeling sick has re-entered my life and has even seen me physically throw up this week or when dinner is cooking the smell just sets me off, so I love that!

7. random but I am going to add it into this pregnancy update. some nights I have been hearing little pops but no my waters haven’t broken etc and it is always when baby girl is most active in the womb and yes I’ve asked my Ob but he seems to think it’s just my mind playing tricks on me or my hubby thinks I just keep farting and I don’t feel it… so yeah everyone thinks I’m going crazy? so if this has happened to anyone else I would love to know in the comments down below so I know I’m not actually going crazy.

8. A night my tummy now makes some pretty loud and funny sounds from the inside which has been crazy funny to listen too as it’s so loud the hubby can here them too. and they always happen when I’m just sitting on the sofa or in bed doing nothing.

Bump update.

We made it! 37 weeks pregnant

Just like my OB said this week too me, we finally are “full term.” She can now come when ever she feels like it!

This weeks pregnant systems:

I wish I could say I’ve felt heaps of pregnant systems this week but the bigger she gets and the less room she has everything has slowed down heaps and even her movements have also slowed down.

• reflux- I now go to bed every night taking two reflux tablets.. both pregnancies I’ve had bad reflux..

• pelvic pain.. worst feeling in the world is definitely trying to roll over and your in that much pain it takes a good five minutes to do so.

• less kicks from her and now it’s more I feel her when she moves her little bum or when she has the hiccups etc.

How my OB appointment went.

I now see my OB every week as I’m two weeks away from my due date, this week’s check up was little bit of a exciting one. I learnt that she is head right down, her head is actually in my pelvic bone and that’s why I’ve been feeling lots of pressure, hospital term is she is engaged and ready to go. All my blood works have come back normal and that’s so good to here. Now I just have to wait until she is here which Hopfully is very soon.

Her chubby face all up in my pelvis area

Bump update:

37 weeks and 3 days

I want to start taking side photos of my belly as I feel like she has dropped but only a little tiny bit and would love to compare bump photos but I keep forgetting to do this and probably won’t now it’s too late.

Getting ready for Labour.

Now that I’m 38 weeks as I’m writing this I’ve begun getting my body ready for child birth and this is how.

• working out daily and doing lots of pelvic exercises to help with child birth.

• walking daily to just get her to keep moving down lower.

• red raspberry tea I’ve been having two cups a day.

• working on my breathing.

36 weeks pregnant with only 4 weeks to go

I did it, I made it to 36 weeks and I’m still going. This week has been so physically hard on my body and I can slowly feel myself shutting down so I know this is my body trying to tell me I’m done. This week was my first week not working and being on leave which felt weird but also nice at the same time, I did have pre plans for this time before baby girl makes her arrival into the world, I really wanted to enjoy my alone time with no hubby and having our two year old still in daycare. But the world has other plans for me right now and the big main one is doing my part and staying home and keeping this baby happy and healthy.

Hubby is still working which is good for right now as so many people are losing their jobs in Australia right now and we both decided to keep our son in daycare and keeping up with his normal routine as much as possible. I know a lot of parents will read this and not understand but I am not only a mother I too am a childcare educator, the centre that my son Lorenzo attends is the same place I work at and have worked at for the past five years. All the educators are bleaching toys and furniture daily and I know this for a fact as just last week I was one of them. all children from other age groups and rooms have been keeping their distance and all measurements have been put into place to continue a healthy environment. Not only am I 100% happy with how clean all the teachers are keeping the place, I know that childcare educators are at risk of losing their jobs for every child that is kept home or un-enrolling is one job taken from a childcare educator who has their own family to think about, Lorenzo will still be attending until our baby girl is born, hubby and I have spoken about once she is born we will keep him home for a while “we still are trying to work this out.” then re-send him when we know she is healthy and safe.

This weeks pregnant systems.

• reflux which has pretty much been a weekly update since hitting my third trimester.

• constipation but also at the same time normal bowel movements.. I know TMI

• heaps of movement from baby girl she’s deffiently running out of room.

• massive feeling like I need to push from my bum, lots of pressure in that area I think she must be very low.

Bump update.

Had a OB check up this week, baby girl is head down still and very active and moving around which is good. My blood pressure was a little low for the OB and he did check it twice and it didn’t pick up and then the next day my mother “who used to be a midwife.” checked it herself and it was still low, so I’m trying to keep my water levels up as I think it’s because I’ve been slack and not drinking heaps of water as I should be.

Baby girls heart rate was good, the blood flow etc was good. was sent for a blood test which I’ll get the results back on Monday when I see my OB as we are now at weekly check ups until she arrives into this world.

I can’t wait to see what week 37 brings to the table or if she comes next week or not.

The Caesar Family.

Scared to give birth at such a devastating time

I wasn’t going to comment or make such a blog about the covid- 19 as I think everyone clearly knows about what’s happening in the world right now and you really don’t need one more person reminding you to take better care of ourselves. But as I went food shopping today and saw these two elderly people struggling to walk and push their own trolly and all I wanted to do was offer help.. which I stilled did even knowing they can’t accept it, that moment was probably the hardest for me and I began to cry.

To top everything off we received a email from our hospital with some updated rules that are now set in place to help protect myself and baby girl when she’s born and other hospital staff.

No longer will I have family members come and visit myself or baby girl or friends as I’m only aloud one person daily which clearly will be hubby as he wants to be with his new child as much as possible. But no children under the age of 16 are aloud in hospital which means my two year old son can’t visit and meet his new baby sister until we are home, I get why these rules are in place and I’m 100% ok with that but it still hurts.

My sweet baby girls birth will always be a story and not for the right reasons, I will always look back at this when my child was born when the virus was so bad the whole world was put on lock down, I will always remember that my mother was at my son’s birth but missed my daughter’s and not because she wanted to but because she had too. I’ll always remember being alone in a hospital room well waiting to take my baby girl home and in a safe place.

I understand why these rules are set in place and I agree with all of them for the safety and wellbeing of everyone right now but it doesn’t make it easier for me, a moment for me that I was looking forward too has now changed too a moment I’m scared about, a moment I feel anxious about. A moment I feel worried about. Which I shouldn’t feel this way about the birth of my second but that’s just the reality of the world right now. So now I’m trying to prepare myself for the birth of my sweet baby girl in a completely new setting.

My new birth plan at this stage is too just be ok, to breath and try and take in all the good moments and let go of those other feelings. To try and not get too inside my own head when it’s just me and baby girl in hospital… that’s my new birth plan.

35 week pregnancy update

Things are getting real for us, gone are the weeks that they felt so slow and I was pregnant forever… now I’m writing up my 35th pregnancy weekly update well I’m “late” and already a few days into week 36..

But here is my 35 week pregnancy update better late than never.

This weeks pregnant systems:

• she is deffiently lower! This week I’ve struggled walking long distances as she gets right down low.

• having a full time sleep in the thing of a past

• reflux it hits really bad when I’m lying in my bed at night.

Bump update:

Im 100% ready for baby girl to make her arrival into the world as I’m so over being pregnant. But I know she is safer in my belly right now with everything going on in the world right now.

It Was my last week of work this week and as sad as I was leaving my children in my class room I’m so happy to be resting and relaxing a little before baby girl is here.

34 weeks down 5 weeks left too go

As the weeks keep moving along and I keep getting closer and closer to giving birth I’m slowly finding myself more and more scared for all the unknowns.

Yes I’ve been through child birth before so I know what to expect this time so that part doesn’t scare me as much, but after child birth after the hospital and when we finally get to go home part!? That’s what scares me the most… hubby just had a massive change in careers “for the better of our family and future.” But with this it means he only just began full time work with his new company so any chance of him having time off to help is a thing of the past. This wasn’t our plan for him to get a new job as he had one already that paid good. But this new company asked for him, his boss had to fight for him a little and already he has been given so many benefits that no other company has ever offered him before. So we know it was the right move for our family but yes it doesn’t make it easier for me knowing he will have two days with me in hospital and straight back at work.

My next thing that I’m scared about is if I’ll even be a good mother to two children, I don’t want Lorenzo to feel left out or that he’s not loved because he will always be my first born and my baby boy. How do parents split there love between children? How do mothers get two children in the car at the same time with such ease and grace? How does your toddler sleep at night well a new born baby wakes up 3 times a night? This is where my mind is traveling too right now. This is where I begin to get scared thinking about the unknow. So yes the weeks are going much faster until her arrival but I just wish they would slow down a little bit. I wish I could breath for a second, spend a little more time with my sweet baby boy before our world is changed forever.

This weeks pregnant systems:

• leg cramps in my sleep “So painful.”

• waking up at nights and having trouble sleeping

• pee stops a lot!

• nesting

• mood swings very emotional

• pelvis pain as she is now head down and I find the more I walk the lower she goes and the more painful it gets.

• can’t bend at all as my reflux gets worse.

• shooting sharp pains straight down

• cold and flu symptoms at night, sore throat but I’m fine durning the day.

Bump update.

34 weeks

I’m off to see my OB next week when I’m 35 weeks pregnant so I’m excited to see what will happen and what he has to say about baby girl, at our last check up she was head down and he had said she will now probably stay head down until she’s ready to come which didn’t mean was soon just meant that she’s in the correct position and when it was time she would come. Everything was looking good and healthy which I was super happy about. So I can’t wait to see what this check up with my OB will bring.

Bring on 35 weeks pregnant!

Nursery tour 🌷

I’ve had so much fun buying all things girly and pretty for our second little baby, I did enjoy doing the same for Lorenzo but not going to lie buying cute little headbands and outfits is all that little bit more special.

I’m happy with how her room turned out and can’t wait to see her in it.

Her nappy change table set up is pretty simple. In one basket I have nothing but singlets for under all her zip ups as she will be a winter baby. The other busket has lots of socks to keep her little toes nice and warm.

The baskets I was given by my sister when I was pregnant with Lorenzo so I unfortunately can’t write where they are from.

Change table is from target. Retail price $100

Behind the baskets I have some nice warm blankets. With also some sleep wraps for when she’s a newborn. Then I have a basket at the back which is filled with wipes, baby creams and shampoo and a baby bottle with her first packet of newborn nappies.

In the coner of her room we have the cot all set up for her but she won’t be sleeping in her own room until six months so we do have her pram nice and set up in front of it and out of the way. With her pink winter blanket.

Her cot again from target and the retail price is around $100 And $50 for mattress. The bedding & change mat are from my first pregnancy with my son so haven’t upgraded in those areas.

Her wardrobe tour ♡

Most of them are bonds as I love bonds

Her four white cube is from kmart Australia. Retail price $19 the little fake plant is $9 and the diffuser is $29 All kmart

Chair is kmart $69 And foot stool also kmart $29 And pillow is also kmart $5 the cow rug us from my son’s old room from kmart but can longer rember the price.

The cow high rug is again also kmart retail price $30

All up for the decor in baby girls room we spent about $190 on her room this is not adding in the cot or change table etc as we had already pre owned them from our first child so if you factor those items the total amount of of baby girls room is $390.

I think when it comes to styling your home the way you want to style it doesn’t have to coat you a arm and a leg and you can style a room on a budget as well. I love kmart because of this reason and I’m actually so happy with how her room has turned out and I can’t wait until she’s here to enjoy her room.

Hope you have enjoyed her little nursery tour.

33 weeks

As the weeks keep passing along I’m getting more and more ready to meet our sweet baby girl. I’m actually starting to get my hopes up over and over again that this week will finally be the week she comes even though I know I’m only 33 weeks and it’s still way to early but I think I’m just getting over it.

This weeks pregnant systems have been.

• Braxton hicks

• on and off sleep

• sickness and diarrhea on and off.

• engrey levels low.

• everything is starting to feel tight and I’m struggling to breath and gone are the days of sitting on the floor with the kids at work or with my son at home.

• I actually feel like I’m losing weight like my face is getting slimer and I’m not holding that water weight as much as I was last week.

Ob check up:

Every two weeks I see my OB at the hospital and this week was my check up. Baby girl is doing well she’s 70% cooked which apparently is a little on the chubby side but her head is still measuring smaller but blood flow etc is good. Her little head is now in my pelvis area and he said she will probably stay head down now until she’s ready to come and make it into the world.

Don’t ask what I’m looking at because I don’t know.

The weeks seem to be going slower and I’m starting to get more and more tired of pregnancy.. I’m trying so hard to enjoy these last few weeks as I’ll never get them back but man I can’t wait for baby girl to be here.

Can’t wait to see what 34 weeks of pregnancy brings me.