36 weeks pregnant with only 4 weeks to go

I did it, I made it to 36 weeks and I’m still going. This week has been so physically hard on my body and I can slowly feel myself shutting down so I know this is my body trying to tell me I’m done. This week was my first week not working and being on leave which felt weird but also nice at the same time, I did have pre plans for this time before baby girl makes her arrival into the world, I really wanted to enjoy my alone time with no hubby and having our two year old still in daycare. But the world has other plans for me right now and the big main one is doing my part and staying home and keeping this baby happy and healthy.

Hubby is still working which is good for right now as so many people are losing their jobs in Australia right now and we both decided to keep our son in daycare and keeping up with his normal routine as much as possible. I know a lot of parents will read this and not understand but I am not only a mother I too am a childcare educator, the centre that my son Lorenzo attends is the same place I work at and have worked at for the past five years. All the educators are bleaching toys and furniture daily and I know this for a fact as just last week I was one of them. all children from other age groups and rooms have been keeping their distance and all measurements have been put into place to continue a healthy environment. Not only am I 100% happy with how clean all the teachers are keeping the place, I know that childcare educators are at risk of losing their jobs for every child that is kept home or un-enrolling is one job taken from a childcare educator who has their own family to think about, Lorenzo will still be attending until our baby girl is born, hubby and I have spoken about once she is born we will keep him home for a while “we still are trying to work this out.” then re-send him when we know she is healthy and safe.

This weeks pregnant systems.

• reflux which has pretty much been a weekly update since hitting my third trimester.

• constipation but also at the same time normal bowel movements.. I know TMI

• heaps of movement from baby girl she’s deffiently running out of room.

• massive feeling like I need to push from my bum, lots of pressure in that area I think she must be very low.

Bump update.

Had a OB check up this week, baby girl is head down still and very active and moving around which is good. My blood pressure was a little low for the OB and he did check it twice and it didn’t pick up and then the next day my mother “who used to be a midwife.” checked it herself and it was still low, so I’m trying to keep my water levels up as I think it’s because I’ve been slack and not drinking heaps of water as I should be.

Baby girls heart rate was good, the blood flow etc was good. was sent for a blood test which I’ll get the results back on Monday when I see my OB as we are now at weekly check ups until she arrives into this world.

I can’t wait to see what week 37 brings to the table or if she comes next week or not.

The Caesar Family.

Scared to give birth at such a devastating time

I wasn’t going to comment or make such a blog about the covid- 19 as I think everyone clearly knows about what’s happening in the world right now and you really don’t need one more person reminding you to take better care of ourselves. But as I went food shopping today and saw these two elderly people struggling to walk and push their own trolly and all I wanted to do was offer help.. which I stilled did even knowing they can’t accept it, that moment was probably the hardest for me and I began to cry.

To top everything off we received a email from our hospital with some updated rules that are now set in place to help protect myself and baby girl when she’s born and other hospital staff.

No longer will I have family members come and visit myself or baby girl or friends as I’m only aloud one person daily which clearly will be hubby as he wants to be with his new child as much as possible. But no children under the age of 16 are aloud in hospital which means my two year old son can’t visit and meet his new baby sister until we are home, I get why these rules are in place and I’m 100% ok with that but it still hurts.

My sweet baby girls birth will always be a story and not for the right reasons, I will always look back at this when my child was born when the virus was so bad the whole world was put on lock down, I will always remember that my mother was at my son’s birth but missed my daughter’s and not because she wanted to but because she had too. I’ll always remember being alone in a hospital room well waiting to take my baby girl home and in a safe place.

I understand why these rules are set in place and I agree with all of them for the safety and wellbeing of everyone right now but it doesn’t make it easier for me, a moment for me that I was looking forward too has now changed too a moment I’m scared about, a moment I feel anxious about. A moment I feel worried about. Which I shouldn’t feel this way about the birth of my second but that’s just the reality of the world right now. So now I’m trying to prepare myself for the birth of my sweet baby girl in a completely new setting.

My new birth plan at this stage is too just be ok, to breath and try and take in all the good moments and let go of those other feelings. To try and not get too inside my own head when it’s just me and baby girl in hospital… that’s my new birth plan.

34 weeks down 5 weeks left too go

As the weeks keep moving along and I keep getting closer and closer to giving birth I’m slowly finding myself more and more scared for all the unknowns.

Yes I’ve been through child birth before so I know what to expect this time so that part doesn’t scare me as much, but after child birth after the hospital and when we finally get to go home part!? That’s what scares me the most… hubby just had a massive change in careers “for the better of our family and future.” But with this it means he only just began full time work with his new company so any chance of him having time off to help is a thing of the past. This wasn’t our plan for him to get a new job as he had one already that paid good. But this new company asked for him, his boss had to fight for him a little and already he has been given so many benefits that no other company has ever offered him before. So we know it was the right move for our family but yes it doesn’t make it easier for me knowing he will have two days with me in hospital and straight back at work.

My next thing that I’m scared about is if I’ll even be a good mother to two children, I don’t want Lorenzo to feel left out or that he’s not loved because he will always be my first born and my baby boy. How do parents split there love between children? How do mothers get two children in the car at the same time with such ease and grace? How does your toddler sleep at night well a new born baby wakes up 3 times a night? This is where my mind is traveling too right now. This is where I begin to get scared thinking about the unknow. So yes the weeks are going much faster until her arrival but I just wish they would slow down a little bit. I wish I could breath for a second, spend a little more time with my sweet baby boy before our world is changed forever.

This weeks pregnant systems:

• leg cramps in my sleep “So painful.”

• waking up at nights and having trouble sleeping

• pee stops a lot!

• nesting

• mood swings very emotional

• pelvis pain as she is now head down and I find the more I walk the lower she goes and the more painful it gets.

• can’t bend at all as my reflux gets worse.

• shooting sharp pains straight down

• cold and flu symptoms at night, sore throat but I’m fine durning the day.

Bump update.

34 weeks

I’m off to see my OB next week when I’m 35 weeks pregnant so I’m excited to see what will happen and what he has to say about baby girl, at our last check up she was head down and he had said she will now probably stay head down until she’s ready to come which didn’t mean was soon just meant that she’s in the correct position and when it was time she would come. Everything was looking good and healthy which I was super happy about. So I can’t wait to see what this check up with my OB will bring.

Bring on 35 weeks pregnant!

33 weeks

As the weeks keep passing along I’m getting more and more ready to meet our sweet baby girl. I’m actually starting to get my hopes up over and over again that this week will finally be the week she comes even though I know I’m only 33 weeks and it’s still way to early but I think I’m just getting over it.

This weeks pregnant systems have been.

• Braxton hicks

• on and off sleep

• sickness and diarrhea on and off.

• engrey levels low.

• everything is starting to feel tight and I’m struggling to breath and gone are the days of sitting on the floor with the kids at work or with my son at home.

• I actually feel like I’m losing weight like my face is getting slimer and I’m not holding that water weight as much as I was last week.

Ob check up:

Every two weeks I see my OB at the hospital and this week was my check up. Baby girl is doing well she’s 70% cooked which apparently is a little on the chubby side but her head is still measuring smaller but blood flow etc is good. Her little head is now in my pelvis area and he said she will probably stay head down now until she’s ready to come and make it into the world.

Don’t ask what I’m looking at because I don’t know.

The weeks seem to be going slower and I’m starting to get more and more tired of pregnancy.. I’m trying so hard to enjoy these last few weeks as I’ll never get them back but man I can’t wait for baby girl to be here.

Can’t wait to see what 34 weeks of pregnancy brings me.

32 weeks of love

The weeks seem to be getting slower and slower and I’m just so ready to meet our sweet baby girl. Hubby and have started the guessing game if she will be early, on time or late. I said on time and hubby is going with late so I guess we will see what the next few weeks bring.

This week’s pregnant systems:

• leg cramps ( really painful) at night and super annoying as they will wake me up if I move my leg the wrong way.

• dry white/ yellow stuff leaking out of my right boob!? Didn’t get this with my first born so Hopfully this is a good sign for my breastfeeding journing.

• having dreams again at night, some nights I’ve been dreaming about labour and there kind of scary dreams about this topic, other nights its about random stuff such as my car being stolen etc.

• really sore boobs to the point I can’t even touch them anymore they hurt.

• Really Bad Braxton hicks I thought I was in early stages of labour as they were very different this time around compared to what I normally get. but again not consent and they soon stopped…

• reflux

• super tired and run down

Bump update:

How I’m feeling.

I wanted to add this in because although social media makes pregnancy look amazing and all that jaz I just want to be 100% honest with you all. I’ve always been a very honest real person on social media and off and nothing will change this. My first pregnancy was a walk in the park compared to this pregnancy… And that’s saying something as I was forever in and out of hospital and almost lost Lorenzo in our second trimester as I was throwing up blood and it wouldn’t stop. But nope Lorenzo was easy compared to baby girl. Everyone fails to mention how hard second pregnancy is on your body, how physically and mentally your done.. full time work, two year old at home and 33 weeks pregnant… definitely won’t be doing this again I think my body and my state of mind needs a long break from childbirth and pregnancy and I think I’m content with two and so is hubby.

Next week I’ll have more to report as we see pur OB every two weeks and that check up is next Tuesday so I’m looking forward to seeing baby girl and how she’s going and giving you all a massive update.

The Caesar family

What’s in my hospital bag for baby number two!

I remember my first pregnancy with my now two year old Lorenzo, I was put on bed rest due to issues with my body and I was told to be prepared so of course as a first time mother I packed his hospital bag I think before I was even 30 weeks pregnant… fast forward to now, two years later and my second pregnancy having Braxton hicks daily and yet didn’t start packing my hospital bag until I was 33 weeks pregnant oh how times have changed.

I’ll have that blog linked down below if your interested in seeing what I packed for baby number one compared to baby number two.

https://newmummyblogger94.blog/2017/12/19/whats-in-my-hospital-bag-%F0%9F%92%BC/amp/

I have two bags one for baby girl and one for me. First I’ll show you everything in baby girls hospital bag.

Her bag is from mimco

I’ve put all her outfits into little zip lock bags and easy to get too etc.

One thing I learnt from my first pregnancy is that having everything together and easy to reach when needed is the way too go. And sorry husbands but also just easier for the men who don’t understand that a crazy pregnant lady had already pre planned what outfits will look better together.

Ive packed four outfits for baby girl as I was told we would be in hospital for max a week but I really want to leave ealier then that if i can. Last time I packed nine and that was way too much! So again ive learnt a lot from my first time around and I think four outfits are are a good amount.

Each outfit has also been packed with a singlet and a pair of socks as we are heading into winter and it will be a chilly one.

Most of her outfits are from bonds as I’m in love with bonds.

I’ve even packed a few extra hats and mittens for her head and hands to stay warm.

When we went to our last hospital “we have chosen a different hospital, this time around.” We had so many different midwifes stay how to wrap up our baby and how we were doing it wrong.. again this is just the journey of learning as first time parents. This time around I’m not putting myself in that position again so we have packed a baby swaddle that is a zip up and easy to use and no need for worry about if she’s wrapped the correct way.

Our next little thing we packed is her name tag we had made for us for her arrival photo when we are in hospital. I can’t show you the front as it has her name but I can’t wait until she’s here to show you the front of it.

Our last two items for baby girls hospital bag are her nappies and wipes. I forgot how cute newborn nappies are.

Now that I’ve covered baby girls hospital bag I can finally show you mine.

First things first the pads… the postpartum life isn’t that sexy.

In the front pocket I have 3 nursering bras and a whole heaps of granny undies.

Lose fitted PJ top easy to lift up when breast feeding and comfy for the hospital and warm.

Comfy pj pants

Going home outfit. Comfy black pants and just a comfy top and again easy for breast feeding.

For my hospital stay I have two outfits as I’m sure I’ll just live in my PJs.. I have this lose fitted top that has buttons again easy for breast feeding.

With the lose fitted top I’ve paired it with my comfy pregnancy pants to hide my postpartum belly.

My second hospital stay outfit is just a oversized dress something comfy to just be around the hospital in.

Bathroom bag.

I’ve got a travel sized bathroom bag to pack into my hospital bag which I’ve just packed.

• hair brush

• toothbrush and toothpaste

• travel size shampoo

• dry shampoo in case I just don’t have time to wash my hair.

• make up bag

•body wash

• deorent

• breast feeding pads

• towel

• paw paw cream for dry skin

Extras that have been packed.

• phone charger

• camera

•phone

• wallet with my money and heath care cards etc. The important stuff.

That pretty much covers everything I need to pack for the hospital. Only one month left until baby girl is finally here

Everything you need to know in your third trimester 🤰

At work the other day I was having a conversion with my friends about childbirth it was probably a very funny conversation for me and not so much for them. But the reason we got on the subject about child birth was because I’ve begun having Braxton hicks at work.. anyway this made me more aware of just how little women are actually educated about what it’s really like being pregnant and in your third trimester.

So this brings me to my topic of everything that happens in your third trimester.

Things I wish women told me.

• make a check list, I’ll be sharing mine with you all very soon.

• it’s ok to say no to going out and being social, it doesn’t mean your a bad friend and if your like me and the first one out of your friends to have babies. One day your friends will get it and until that day just let them be mad because one day they will look back and say sorry.

• date nights are important, making time with your husband or partner is still so important.

• make time for you! Be selfish go out alone and enjoy it because for the next few years your going to have a very depent little human who needs there mother And sorry to my husband but also him.

• journal everything or in my case blog! Now this is my second pregnancy and I’ve had this blog since my pregnancy with Lorenzo who is now two years old. I still look back and read his birth blog and those milestones I had with him and I love that! I also have a little box that I’ve made him for when he’s older it has all these letters I’ve written from the time I was pregnant to his first birthday. Any keep sakers are a memory You don’t want to lose.

• don’t fear childbirth, because it’s not actually the worst feeling in the world. The contradictions are harder than the pushing.

• hormones are wild! I found myself on Google the other day trying to find ways to calm myself down I woke up just in the worst mood for no reason.

• don’t plan on walking a whole heap because when you do it hurts like a bitch and you start getting shortness of breath.

• prepare your friends and family, set some ground rules and make sure everyone is on the same page. Again what I mean by this is tell them when it’s ok to come visit and when it’s not. Make sure they know if they are sick to please not come up and visit. Little things like this might not seem important but they are trust me.

Practical things you should definitely be doing by now.

• birth plan – now I’ve said many times yes it’s great to have one but also don’t have to higher of expectations because anything can happen. If you would like to read my birth plan for both pregnancy they are up on my blog.

• pack the hospital bag! Nothing worse than being and feeling unprepared.

• go get your car seat fitted or shown how to install it correctly and safely. With Lorenzo we went to our local fire station and for baby girl when we picked her car seat up from baby bunting we asked and they had a safety person on shift at the time to show us and when we place it in our car we can go back and see if it’s done correctly.

• get to know all your baby items. Play around with your pram practice getting it in and out of your car the best and easiest way and any other items you think you need to get to know. Yes you will be completely silly but trust me nothing worse than a crying new born stuck in her car seat well you try and work out how to fold out the pram…

• classes are your best friend. With Lorenzo I never went to the breast feeding class that was offered to me… boy oh boy do I regret that! They are so helpful you have no idea.

• tour the hospital. Book a tour of where you’ll be get prepared and know your areas well. So helpful and important.

• get the house ready, yes the baby room and and where he or she will sleep is important but it’s not the only thing, make dinners and freeze them down so on night your both tired you can just re-heat. Do a full clean out and make the house as tidy as possible because trust me your going to want to do that after their born so might as well start well pregnant. Do heaps of washing and keep up to date because you’ll forget to do a load of washing some days after child birth and nothing is worse than running out of clean undies.

• stock up on after care items, do this well your pregnant and it’s fresh on your mind. One thing I wished I stocked up more of was breast feeding pads, pads etc.

• do a massive shop in the week or two leading up to the birth of your child, stock up on toilet paper, cleaning supplies, bathroom items. Because trust me the last thing you want to be doing or your partner is running back and forth to the shops because you’ve run out of these things with a two week old baby. All you to do is not wear a bra and be in comfy clothes enjoying your little bundle of joy.

My 3rd trimester check list:

• birth plan – if you would like to see mine it’s already up on my blog page. Just head to the search bar and add in my birth plan and you’ll find both for each of my children.

• take a breast feeding class or chat with someone.

• clean the house before baby girls arrival and when my sister comes to house sit well I’m in labor.

• put the nursey together

• buy everything I need before her birth.

• pack the hospital bag

• tour the hospital

• take as many photos of this last stage as possible.

• plan for newborn baby photos

• start her baby book.

• fit the car seat in and clean my car out.

• get my aftercare kit ready and have it in my bathroom.

• make sure to spend as much one on one time with my son before he becomes a big brother.

For me this pretty much covers everything I can do to be prepared for baby girls arrival. I have my hospital bag left to pack and I’ve made a blog for that as I’m going to list everything one item at a time.

We made it 30 weeks!

Oh what a week… and I thought 29 weeks was hard on me, turns out 30 weeks won that fight.

My week started off a little different, I was graced with some light spotting and blood but it only lasted a day and never returned. I was booked in for a scan and went and saw baby girl straight after the bleeding only to find out she was fine and my wall is still closed, they can’t figure out why I had bleeding and baby girl is perfectly healthy and comfortable. On the bright side i did get to see her and I also am booked in next week to see her as well.

Baby girls foot.

This week’s pregnant systems.

• pink blood “lasted a day.”

• on and off sleep

• super tired durning the day and have begun napping on my lunch break. But tossing and turning and broken sleep at night.

• reflux

• cramping and pains in lower stomach

• leg cramps at night

• dizzy

• very active baby girl moves a lot and I feel her every day.

• after a long day on my feet I notice they get chubby

How I’m feeling.

This week was hard I found myself had way more breakdowns and I’m honesty just ready for her to come out now. I’ve enjoyed this pregnancy but it’s been super hard on my body the second time around and I’m taking it day by day at the moment. I hope she comes early or on time because I definitely don’t think I can make it past 40 weeks.

I’ve made a to-do list of things I need time I within the next coming weeks. For example I really should begin packing my hospital bag which is on my to do list this weekend. Also her room is not even ready yet so I’m adding that to my list.

Can’t wait to see what 31 weeks of pregnancy brings to the table. Hopefully it’s a little better then this week.

The Caesar family ♡

29 weeks done and dusted

Holy heck I’m now officially out the 20’s and hitting the 30 weeks!? Blows my mind.

Wow I don’t even know how to start off with how crazy this week has been and I can feel myself getting more and more over being pregnant as the weeks go by.

This week’s pregnant systems:

Heads up this weeks a little TMI!

• feeling funny in the stomach… honesty don’t know how to word this but for the women out there my week started off with me feeling like when you are due for your period and you keep running to the bathroom to check because your body just feels like it’s leaking or it’s about to start… well yeah I had that feeling which started my week off and lasted a few days to be honest but nothing came of it?

• on the 9th of February I had a night of cramping which happened twice and about 20 minutes apart but again it stopped after the second and never came about again and I went to bed to sleep and was fine the next day.

• my bathroom breaks are becoming more and more and I’m talking lose bowel movements… I seem to poo a lot this week… again TMI I know

• diarrhea Monday 10th but only lasted that day and soon stopped.

• sleeping habits have changed and I’m now waking up at night a lot.of break sleep.. I’ve actually found sleeping on the sofa I get a better night sleep which is so weird.

• heartburn is still very much a thing and reflux

• headaches on and off this week.

• the pregnancy waddle is very much alive and feeling baby girl head down of I walk too much. Gone are the days I could walk the whole food shop with ease!

Bump update:

Bring on 30 weeks I’ve got this!

The Caesar family ♡

28 weeks

I can’t believe I’m almost 30 weeks pregnant it’s scary but I’m so ready to meet baby girl.

This week’s pregnancy symptoms are:

• bending down low and feeling pressure down there like I’m dilating

• starting to have trouble sleeping on and off, some nights I sleep very well and others I don’t.

• very tender and sore down in my lower belly area getting harder and harder to do simple task such as walk a whole shopping centre without cramping or having bad pains.

• the peeing all the time stage is back! I will be fast asleep and bam… I need to pee and I’m wide awake at 2am.

• craving sweet things all the time. I’m still loving my ice cream or chocolates here and there.

According to my app:

• baby girl is the size of the head of a lettuce.

• baby girl should weigh now 1.1kg

• baby girl can now blink.

Bump update:

How I’m feeling:

I’m honestly trying so hard to enjoy and take in every possible Moment of this pregnancy as we know this is our last but the harder and bigger I’m becoming the more uncomfortable I am getting and the less joy I’m feeling towards being pregnant anymore.

Any changes at home:

We finally have started her nursery and it’s almost finished but unfortunately now our two year old knows that this is not a room for himself and it’s for the new arrival his baby sister. He’s becoming way more clingy to me and mum has to be never far away which I know I shouldn’t complain as one day when he’s 16 years old and all he wants is to be far away from me and go hang out with his mates I’ll miss these moments but still hard to get anything done or have alone time when your two year old is attached by the hip. Did anyone else experience this?

I can’t wait to see what 29 weeks brings for me as I have so much next week, I have my blood tests and I now see my OB every two weeks so I see him next week which means i get to see baby girl.

Thank you to everyone that still is keeping updated with my pregnancy journey, I’ve enjoyed documenting these pregnancy updates not only for myself to look back and read on but also for you guys.

The Caesar family ❌